everything's fine now....woohooo

well now everything is fine and i am happy about it...except one thing that goes on and on in my mind....and it is something that is not so openly describable...but well i know u know about it ...
so leaving all the sad things away.... would like to talk more about what happened today...

PE lessons were usual...less FUN, but at the most got chance to be with the classmates...
during the end of PE...i was watching ...and thinking whether one day i would be able to be there....right there...
then
iSaw...iThought...iCloseMyEyes...iDreamt....and all of a sudden iPutThe BasketBallThroughTheNets four times consecutively.... maybe the presence is very energetic....i caould feel the waves... sometimes i was thinking whether i am being watched or something....but maybe it was just a thought....

Then changed.....
LangArts was ok ... and not so boring until the teacher gave us some work to do....i prefer discussion over writing...my ideas flow much easily while speaking and thinking about it thn writing...the teachers also say that i have a very "Imaginative, Innovative....and errr not to forget....CRAZY" brain....welll ya i think i do....but it doesnt really matter...cause at this point in time i dont just need a brain .... i need ....a <3 too...
Then Maths passed on as usual....laughter laughter and again more laughter....hehe... But Mr. Chia looked presentable in the new shirt....nice guy he is...but still he is worth being laughed on...and i guess he should have got WHY?? hehe nvr mind....But really he is a guy worth respecting...
Then had an interesting talk by Dr. Kenneth Tan talking about censorship, was better than the previous one... i thought maybe i will start blurting out somethings towards the end...but thought i should keep someone's comments in mind..."IT MIGHT LOOK LIKE SHOW OFF" huh....dont understand why ppl dont seem to know how basic things work....even when they use it like like helll and i mean everyday...oh ya i remembered...i have to study C++ language....i have to make up an OS till i leave VJC....
those who dont know...OS is an operating system...like Microsoft (R) Windows (R) and Linux(R)
nvr mind if u dont know me in FULL DETAIL...


but nvr mind.... i get these thoughts very often....so nothing new...HAHA

well after that was just slacking for sometime and i cant believe i managed to complete my Lang Arts work...gr8 relief....
Well thats abt it
then came back had a nice dinner....
was studying for the Physics test, which is tomorrow....i mean errr literally today...12.30 am now...
then had a little RakshaBandhan gathering @ the canteen in hostel...was quiet fun except for the part when i touched my senior's feet in RESPECT for tying me Rakhi....wats wrong with that...aaah....then i do some sms'in stuff....and i get a nice reply that just makes my day...worth living.....
thnx pooja di.....(my senior)

For ppl who dont know the secret...u can stop here...the others can continue reading....
Sayonara for them
Sandesh

Oh ya...suddenly now i have a urge to talk to someone, but no one online....so i end up updating my blog...i thought maybe err...one might be online, but wasnt....and then i realised....tht tomorrow got the PSL interviews....today also had,,.....so wished her luck for that....i really hope she makes it...well i know she will....hehehe.....

ppl like her are needed...DEAD or ALIVE....errr i mean alive and jolly good...thnx to u too...

well awaiting my new juniors....was remembering how i got selected... well nvr mind...tomorrow got physics....
Sandesh
am there.....just an sms away...or maybe for u even a breath away...

Adios
HAPPY RAKSHABANDHAN
thnx for the Rakhi Shweta didi.....i really liked it and i miss u like hell....

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hmmmmm

well...i..i dont have any words to say at this moment. Somehow i think happiness isnt me. Its just there for sake. Nvr thought today would be so bad that i would have to cry alone...ALONE...no one knows except you (the reader, no wrong interpretations or connotations please). Yesterday was like very happy happy, but today it all changed....all because of me....all because of fuckin ME....why did i have to do this...?? why ?? and now that mom is angry with me.....come back....i m sorry....!!!! i need you, please forgive me....

well nothing is getting along good with me, except for me finding a very nice friend. I enjoy talking to her.....seems to be very....errr very.....errr very sweet, polite and ya of course understanding and not to forget very different from others. As i mentioned in some of my previous posts, i seriously wish that people like her flood this earth....i wont even care if i dont get space....but i would be happy enough to see people like her there...... Oh yeah, congratulations for the award...Keep it up..I saw the different side of her yesterday, when i was going through some of her previous blogs. I have known and met many different types of girls...and i find that....girls just keep their pains with themselves....i can imagine how heavy their hearts would get with so many things... i know the boys do to...but they are able to get over it fast..., but one scratch on a girl's heart can last forever, like an incurable disease.

ummm thats all for you ppl...the others who know the secret may continue reading further
Sandesh


somethings in life are very precious but when u start cherishing them very intensely then those things start to rot ur brain...no rot isnt the correct word, FRY ur brain in hot oil......oh well and errr...ya i wont make up any of those freakin recipes from now on....,,,,where was i...yes...
the same thing is happenin with me...i just don't seem to understand the chain of rules of life...... i feel like being independent of them...but sometimes it is imprtant if u see from someone else's view....

Why dont people want to be with me.....what is it that they dont want me to do?? i m also like u. Dont judge me on the basis of judging some of my counterparts who are not a bit like me. Trust me i am not like them.

Why cant be everyone be like her...why???

Well never mind, all these things will keep on happening...and i will still keep on hoping that all this sadness is being stored for surprising happy elements of life in future.
Found this interesting thought though

"Dont worry about the day when the world will end, dont care about the future....cause its already tomorrow in Australia."
"Bring it on"..i m impressed...

sandesh
love u mom
sorry

:)

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ummmm...

welll today was not such a good day, but dunno why i started enjoyin it somehow in the middle of the day.....maybe i forgot some things*. HUHHHHH......errrr never mind. well everything was ok as long as i got my BIO ppr. dont want to talk much about that...but yeah...i was thinking about what friendship really means to me, and i wondered....whether U would like to be my friend, yes u, i mean u, will u be the friend of my dreams please, my best friend....if the intended person gets the message, please send me a yes through MSN pls...i will be waiting.....i want to be in any relationship as possible with someone...and i think i would prefer, no in fact stick to friendship (after looking @ the things tht happened some fays before). iwant u...i need u...please just send me a YES...

as usual ppl commented, but i dint care......why should i?? hehe..... Oh ya now gotta do an animation for a competition.......

love u
CyberBeast @ VJC

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HUHHHHH

i am very sad about one things thats been like common with me for the entire life. Not just one thing, more than one actually, why in the world,does it have to happen...i do do do do do d, i doodododood but at the end of the day what i actually get is nowhere near to what i should get...WH WHY WHY.....even, *** likes someone else, i nvr knew *** already had a clique......oh god hard and sad.....found a new friend these days, someone from the Hindi School and i guess ppl like them should be more in numbers on this planet......err...but thats not in my control....Thanx for support though...felt nice to tell her...what i felt about somethings.....and my god she is damn good @ guessing....she even guessed***. umm....hehe...but i also did to.....hehhe...obviously got it wrong lah,.......

errr....oh gotta do some work now

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Three seconds....what tha hell???

those freakin 3 seconds...... freaked my life up. i dont feel like talking to anyone but her.... just her....but i know its like way to difficult for that to happen...but may what i just like feel like talking to anyone...but hahaha
wont ever forget those F-word + ing 3 seconds. and moreover those ppl who got into dint even know programming....

but nvr mind..gave me time to reflect upon what i can and what i want to achieve,,,....

haha
i feel like playying CS now...

bye bye

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