aaahh...
stressed..


ya..
a bit relieved now..


but as usual when one ends there's always another waiting in line...to smash right at my face...so ya..




i guess, i know the reason why....
but its just like WEIRD... ya
i mean, i may be wrong...but come on..

events can co-incide (if u can truely guess wht it means, i m sure, you'll have no reasons to be...)


so ya, "people" acting very very very weird these days..
i mean,
" benefactors are the targets"
ya

i dont know, i did my part even without knowing anything...
anyways..


whtever may the reasons be, i have said it already, i will say it again,
I M SORRY!!
(if the reason behind this, is what i think, then come on.. it would be more insulting)

but howevr insulting it maybe, i would still say it... coz whatever fcked up logic i might apply for whatevr fcked up situation, it still made you angry, and tht is what i dont want..
maybe... its a bit difficult to understand why i m like that..
i dont know

but... then perhaps that is wht u mean to me, whether u accept it or not, i cant see u angry



thts it for now..
gotta study!!





cyberbeast | idj

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wtf!!! you are so not what i expected you to be...
(PS. this doesnt refer to anyone living)

so ya well, i wanted to post this quite a long time before, but just couldnt find the time to do it...
yeah!!

The Importance of a Sister

A sister is someone who loves you from the heart,
No matter how much you argue you cannot be drawn apart.
She is a joy that cannot be taken away,
Once she enters your life, she is there to stay.

A friend who helps you through difficult times,
Her comforting words are worth much more than dimes.
A partner who fills your life with laughs and smile,
These memories last for miles and miles.

When she is by your side, the world is filled with life,
When she is not around, your days are full of strife.
A sister is a blessing, who fills your heart with love,
She flies with you in life with the beauty of a dove.

A companion to whom you can express your feelings,
She doesn’t let you get bored at family dealings.
Whether you are having your ups or downs,
She always helps you with a smile and never frowns.

With a sister you cannot have a grudge,
She is as sweet as chocolate and as smooth as fudge.
Having a sister is not just a trend,
It is knowing you can always turn to her, your best friend.

ya...so well, to sum it all up

luv u sis..
be happy and smile forever..

its just so nice to see someone tying a bond of trust and friendship..
and in return asks for nothing more than the same... (maybe a feet touch..???!!!)
haha
lol..



it was quite nice that day...wish we had talked more..
i feel so mute these days...lol

haha,
aunt amby has started daoing me again...YEAH!!! Woohoo...thts the best sign i could get that she is irritated...but the cold truth is she has to accept it lol

so ya...
i m waiting for somethings...somepeople..
ya

haha
i can see you taking the wrong path, but i know you wont listen to me...so there is no way i can stop you...but perhaphs later or sooner you'll realise that you were wrong....
and
i'll always be there to say
dont force yourself, do your part and it'll come to you!

gotta run!!


Sandesh
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it feels so different..

i feel so confused.
i mean my analysis just feels so "not impactful" for me when others show theirs..

its very painful, and i dont know why...but i have been going through the "2-people-saying-exactly-the-same-sentence-which-doesnt-really-make-me-feel-comfortable" siuations...


and guess what??? 2 such situations happened...


i mean, the first one, i can understand, and fact is acceptable. Its always good to have someone letting you know ways of improvement. But i realised that one was encouraging, the other one was a level more than that, even though it dint mention any postives or anything...


the second situation is more of a concern than anything for me,
coz time is nearing the end and the beginning, and the "situation" is preventing me to plan anything for the beginning. wth..., i thought the direction is positive, but i dont know why some think it is not..
i mean, ya,
its not as if i m yet the "best" or what...
but i am trying...

feels so shocking...when all those moments of hard work and dedication just snaps in a moment just coz of "2-people-saying-exactly-the-same-thing"

life..hahaha




but nonetheless, i am looking forward for the challenge...
i m waiting for the fight...
the big fight...
to let them know whose boss...
yeah





ya...now about other stuff...
so basically, the week was quite good...yeah.. haha,

tuesday, ended late as usual. came back and slept. period.
wednesday was quite ok. CT changed the seating arrangement, and now i m the only GUY in the group! aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh FEMINISM is creeping in my head...!!!!! LOL...
Exco meeting was serious... was teaching chimp, "my-eye-ball-gonna-drop-off" monster, jn and the sick banana (who carries dog on phone...get it??) video stuff...which i m sure they dint understand...
Thursday... got back geog opt results, then for one of the task ( i FAILED at the beginning of the lesson, i PASSED at the end with an A)haha, teacher never mark one section...
ya, couldnt help chimp and the rest edit their video, sry!
then teacher dropped me at Defence Science Organisation labs for elective (as usual)..and the elective went on smoothly..
was feeling very very down. after elective felt alright,...thnx to some1, and for this sum1 - "i'd love to be a gr8 fren 4vr!! :D" lol,
elective was fun, they showed us a powerful laser...and its fucking dangerous. we had to evacuate the class before the laser could be set up. then went in the room 5 at a time, cause dint have enough safety goggles.
When the machine was turned on, all i could hear was this little beep sound which was increasing in intensity.
that was just the flash pump to generate energy. after a while there was silence, about a second or something, then that thing started shooting out laser which dint look like the decent red coloured dot on the wall...it was "electric", i mean thats how i can think of describing it. the intructor put a piece of paper, and the paper got i perfect circular spot in the middle.

its like spark in mid air... just that its not a spark, its an extremely powerful laser.
ya, after a bit of research, i found out that, if an eye, comes in contact with the laser, the
lens in the eye would focus on the retina...and literally "EXPLODE".

and all that was JUST minimum power. It wasnt full power. Instructor say that must get permission from government to run on full power, as if anyone would find out or something...well that was what i thought when the instructor said that..

but i think it was too dumb for me to think that....if they run that machine on high power....anything in the way of the laser would be like completely destroyed. Just now, i talked about one eye, if the other brought in contact with the laser, well, it will literally DISAPPEAR. In scientific terms, the eye will burst, but the burst particles will burst until they become plasma (the fourth state of matter after solid, liquid, gas) and since "earthly" connections wont allow that, the plasma wont be stable enough and would hence "disappear".
its like the most painful thing happening to u for the shortest of time possible...and you cant even see the damage caused... (that is if u are able to see after the experiment in the first place)...
haiz.
haha

yeah so thursday ended like that..


Friday, i.e. today, is India's Independance Day...so err...Happy 62nd Birthday India!!!
we went to the embassy to celebrate!!
reached there just on time for flag hoisting..

they opened the buffet earliar for the students this time round..yea,so basically we ate early and were taking pics until we left...ya!!!

left....reached hostel
me and sagar, watched olympics on the bus back...haha

went to school after changing...
chem
physics
maths quiz...

came back talking about random stuff!!! Its just so nice to be with her...


and now...i m desperately waiting for tomorrow..
tomorrow is an important day!! haha, not because i have to go to hindi school...but because of something...just almost impossible to describe in words...

you mean the world to me,
and belive me or not...
its true, that i can do anything for you,
and the question you asked me on wednesday night...
or the questions you wanted to ask...

my answer would have always been
YES!!! i would have done that!

more coming up tomorrow..!!!




-sandesh

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WOOOOOHHHHOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

Aang defeats the Firelord and restores balance among the 4 kingdoms!!!

omg, Avatar: The Last Airbender (or Avatar: The Lengend of Aang, as shown in some countries) is one of the BEST "American Anime" i have ever watched....

i m desperately waiting for Nickelodeon to produce the fourth book!!!

and i m dam sure the BOOK 4 is gonna come out, since in the last episode, Prince errr, now the new Firelord Zuko doesnt get an answer for the question he asked his evil father, Firelord Ozai.

The mystery about his mother has always been a mystery!! but she does appear in one of the scenes with Azula. ya...

omg, Avatar is so addicting...

go see for yourself!!!

Some lyrics again... (randomly selected)

Mary belongs to the words of a song.

I try to be strong for her, try not to be wrong for her.

But she will not wait for me, anymore, anymore.

Why did I say all those things before? I was sure.

(She is the one), but I have a purpose,

(she is the one), and I have to fight this,

(she is the one), a villian I can't knock down.

I see your face with every punch I take,

and every bone I break, it's all for you.

And my worst pains are words I cannot say,

still I will always fight on for you.

Mary's alive in the bright New York sky,

the city lights shine for her,

above them I cry for her.

Everything's small on the ground below, down below.

What if I fall, then where would I go, would she know?

(She is the one), all that I wanted,

(she is the one), and I will be haunted,

(she is the one), this gift is my curse for now.

I see your face with every punch I take,

and every bone I break, it's all for you.

And my worst pains are words I cannot say,

Still I will always fight on for you.

Fight on for you ...

I see your face with every punch I take,

and every bone I break,

its all for youand my worst pains are words

I cannot say

still I will always fight on for you.

Fight on for you.

Fight on for you...

(i found out that this it the Spiderman 2 (OST))

haha

-Sandesh

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not feeling right...

nothing is.., i guess,



i dont know what to do... it just slips out of my hands...the moment i try to grab it harder.



the girls lost to bedok south again, which according to me is not a team to lose to.

but they did play well, better than thought, i mean, for 6 people to manage 2lines is quite an achievement already... and is quite impressive.



yeah.

i could see kaien, janice, malaysia, maybe to a certain extent Jing Xin...try give in their best.

but still they all lack the attitude. they have to get the KILLER instinct in them...for the vjfb dream...and i am dam certain about that..

yes...





i m not sure of the outcome and so doubtful..!!!



haiz...

sad,





haha

must must must get him to play!!! evn though its difficult..





ending with these random lyrics... (PS - its totally RANDOM)



Breathing

Yellowcard



Eyes are feeling heavy
But they never seem to close
The fan blades on the ceiling spin
But the air is never cold
And even though you're next to me
I still feel so alone
I just can't give you anything
For you to call your own
And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating
My heart's sinking like a weight
Something I've been keeping
Locked away behind my lips
I can feel it breaking free
With each and every kiss
I couldn't bear to hurt you
But it's all so different now
Things that I was sure of
They have filled me up with doubt
And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating
My heart's sinking like a weight
I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Could you stop my heart
It's always beating
Sinking like a weight
How am I supposed to feel
About the things I've done
I don't know if I should stay
Or turn around and run
I know that I hurt you
Things will never be the same
The only love I ever knew
I threw it all away
And I can feel you breathing
And it's keeping me awake
Can you feel it beating
My heart's sinking like a weight
And I can feel you breathing
And its keeping me awake
Could you stop my heart
It's always beating
Sinking like a weight

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walking in the rain,
i asked someone to smile,
depite the circumstances,
but i failed to remind myself...

thinking about the mistakes i made,
and how i could have prevented them,
i could see the divergence in the light,
but i know how it feels,
to be on the-
path, less travelled by (inspiration from william wordsworth)

ya...
so well, i am sure you'd've guessed how my day was like today...

getting along was easier than thought, dint know i was THAT impressive...haha, its the uniqueness of the product, not me,
i just propagate the production, the rest is in the product itself...



anyways,
i found this extremely interesting software(s), lol
and installed it for security purposes in iComp Lab for trial experimentation...

ya...
had the floorball meeting...

surprised to see that the number of floorballers can almost fill up LT AVA...haha
the seniors, all of 'em, believe that we can "do" it...
i mean, i could see it in their eyes, they werent at all worried that VJ FB would be carried on by FB'ers like the new ones....
well, mind reading is one of the many things FB has taught me...

and mr. loke set up some expectations,
which were quite serious in "some" ways..

suddenly things are getting so fucking serious....
why?? come on guys ENJOY!!!
no one smiles...

no one..

haha
well the IP FB Girls got into the Champion's League based on the points they scored in the normal games...which is quite cool in a sense...

i m not at all worried about the outcome... i know they are getting the kIlLeR iNsTiNcT in them...
once they can master their basics along with the killer instinct, they'd be THERE...
ya.
but lets focus on NOW...
haha


i got some plans for them,
but i need all of 'em to believe in me first...haha


gotta go..
bbye

haha
CYBERBEAST HyperCube

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Your result for Which Chess Piece are You Test? ...
The Queen's Bishop

Congrats! Only 3-5% of the population score this!

The Queen’s Bishop has charisma and social knowledge. It is this that draws so many under their ‘tutelage’. The Queen’s Bishop is a teacher and has the phenomenal interpersonal skill that sells them to others. It isn’t that they attempt to manipulate others – rather they really believe their dreams and see themselves as helpers. They usually are.
This Bishop is a global learner. They like to see the big picture. They are adept at juggling responsibilities and projects. This isn’t to say they are naturally organized, rather they are organized with people in mind. The conclusions they draw from others and their motives are drawn quickly. This Bishop knows people and appreciates them. They however have a problem with forgetting themselves and their own needs because they will frequently vouch for others. If people are too gruff or critical, these people are hurt and abused. Sensitivity must be used around the Queen’s Bishop because they burden themselves the most.
If anyone comes knocking with problems, they will drop their duties – regardless of the circumstance. If someone happens to call, they will answer it and take care of that conversation putting the first person on hold. If a quick question is posed by yet another – they will attend to that. They are honestly open to helping others – that is why it is hard to gain their undivided attention. Everyone knows this and tends to ask for a bit of time from them. Ever heard of the “Open Door” Policy?

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Hey guys...
back again..




the week was fun,
CAREERs..

sounds serious business, but nonetheless, was one of the memorable one too...
all the talks, the videos and the activities...

marking the end to one of the major activities in IP...

cant believe IP's coming to an end.
haiz,
all those memories will be locked in...
and as permanent memory, it would be stored for FUTURE USE only..




anyways...
the week was dam fun...


anyways...called someone up on her birthday...
she was quite surprised to hear me...lol,

ya,
so what else to blog about..


well things are quite well going (for now)
i know the troubles i have piled up for the next week, which is gonna screw me like shit. and i havent even planned up for it either..
so ya, next week's gonna be a complete mess....


oh ya,
the girls lost ystrday..
10-2

all because of the first period. No proper man marking, attackers were focuseed just on their attacking, which cost them the defence...blah blah blah...
but nonetheless...
they tried their best to fight back in the second and third period...

ya...
janice dint play, and everybody could feel the difference.
She has improved a lot... seriously

THEY CRIED after the match...
well, it wasnt a worst thing to do, but it was neither the best thing to do. This shows the lack of perseverance..
ya..

but, ya
we are still in the champions league...
which should be a tough competition (assuming the fact that we play in the league)

and OMG...
hui ying joined floorball just before the competition
and she's like so freaking pro and goalkeeping...

no wonder Yan said her goalie-skills are very stylish...
AAAAAAAAAGGGGGGHHHHH, i will literally worship such people man..

ya...

well,
quite bored of typing,
i'll end off with these lyrics

DAUGHTRY

It's Not Over

I was blown away.

What could I say?

It all seemed to make sense.

You've taken away everything,

And I can't deal with that.

I try to see the good in life,

But good things in life are hard to find.

We'll blow it away, blow it away.

Can we make this something good?

Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.

I'll try to do it right this time around.

It's not over.

'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.

This love is killing me,

But you're the only one.

It's not over.

Taken all I could take,

And I cannot wait.

We're wasting too much time

Being strong, holding on.

Can't let it bring us down.

My life with you means everything,

So I won't give up that easily.

I'll blow it away, blow it away.

Can we make this something good?

'Cause it's all misunderstood.

Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.

I'll try to do it right this time around.

It's not over.

'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.

This love is killing me,

But you're the only one.

It's not over.

We can't let this get away.

Let it out, let it out.

Don't get caught up in yourself.

Let it out.

Let's start over.

I'll try to do it right this time around.

It's not over.

'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.

This love is killing me,

But you're the only one.

It's not over.

Let's start over.

It's not over, yeah...

This love is killing me,

But you're the only one.

It's not over.

<3>

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