Long ago
Just like the hearse you die to get in again
We are so far from you

Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide?

What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight









hmmm..
wow!

for someone

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I came like the wind;
I’ll go away like a breeze.
As though I was never meant to be.

My mind's weird, I too am weird
but never has reality ever affected it.
My heart was the weaker one,
and every little moment, it wanted to keep.

When I think of what caught up with me so fast,
I don’t really know the answer,
but if I think about the time, the stars were named,
I can only think of you.

I can die to see that smile,
but when somehow,
you don’t seem to notice
I just seem to lose mine.

I know I won’t give up,
coz that is how
I wanted things to be,
but in the run for
the desires and expectations
someone seems to fade away,
in the darkness of those thoughts.

whenever I see what I don’t want to see
whenever I hear what I don’t want to hear
whenever I feel what I don’t want to feel
I just seem like shouting,
the scream of silence.
The scream of sadness.
And I know I make things weird,
make u find urself in weird situations,

but...

I know, I am sorry.

I don’t know how you made your way through,
but I do know that you'll never feel alone now,
I won’t let.

You gave me the strength
to become myself again.
and it just feels nice,
even when I think of you

but I doubt things are
the same on your side,
coz u never let me know
coz u keep secrets very close

I want to reach out
to that sweet little heart of yours
to give it the support it needs,
and the love it deserves.

I want to hold your baby-hands,
day and night,
smiles and joys, in rain and in pain

my thoughts are shut tight,
deep within me
my hearts asking for a way out
and it can’t see anything from here.

I don’t know what happened...
in those years,
when i wasnt around,
but i know it wasn't easy.
I can see it on your face,
I can see it in your eyes,
I can see it in your heart,
and I can see it in your mind.

Will you come with me
away from this planet, far away?
Deeper into the space, where nobody can see
and all there would be, it’s just you and me.
Is it fear or my strength that drives me?
Is it love or pain that kills me?
Is it emotions or expressions that save me?
I question till my weak heart melts,
but I won’t let the world weaken it completely,
coz there is something present there,
which I don’t want to lose..
And well I think if not everyone,
at least u should know it’s YOU!

I am scared that,
time will break the threads
that link us from head to toe,
time will come and force us apart,
and I don’t have the courage to fight that.
I know I’d still do whatever I can...but
i know in my mind.
I'll lose.
Will I then, be able to save my heart?
Will I then, be able to tell you... that
you were the first,
and the last one on my charts?


IT always comes as a surprise,
and a hurting surprise at that...
maybe you dont realise that,
I do feel it that way.
I won’t leave you;
I want to stay in your heart and mind
forever.

But
I know, I am already dead.


revive me, save me
bring me back to life,
and I’ll be the one for you
no matter how hard things be,
I’ll always be there for you.


you are the that thought I’d love to carry in my mind,
you are the blood I’d love to run in my heart,
you are the breath I’d love to feel as the wind blows into my face,
yours' is the beauty I’d love to remember forever...

like that one little star in the center.

You are my waking dream
You're all that's real to me
You are the magic in the world I see

You are the prayer I sing
You brought me to my knees
You are the faith that made me believe

Dreams on Fire
Higher and Higher
Passions burning bright on the pyre
One spark forever yours
Give me all your heart
Dreams on Fire
Higher and Higher

You are my ocean waves
You are my thought each day
You are the laughter from childhood games

You are the spark of dawn
You are where I belong
You are the ache I feel in every song

Maybe I should never have told you,
Maybe then would I not be so angry with myself.
Maybe then my confessions wouldn't have been...
so brutally painful.

I wanna know what you feel,
Cause that is what will pacify me,
That is what will bring me up again,
I am a dreamer and I dream a lot,
But when you don't seem to speak,
it all just feels like a mirage.

When in the darkness I'll cry,
When in the brightness I'll strive to see you smile,
When in the rain I'll seek to give you shelter,
When in pain I'll die to give you love.

(every star was centered around this)






PS. - THE POEM ISNT FINISHED. I'LL WAIT UNTIL THE POET UPDATES.


hehe
i know its very unexpected.
but i think "some" of the things are definitely relevant..






i was thinking about the "past" and somehow, things feel weird..
is 2 years that short of a time..??? i wonder..

maybe u'd undrstnd.

:(

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as i look down that path..
it feels different now...

a bit darker...than what i expected..
ya..



i know it wasnt easy..
even though the end is near, physically yes...

but this is not where we end..
this is not where we stop..

we go beyond than where our imagination takes us.
we go beyond that last lap..
we go beyond everything.

i m sorry if u think, i was inefficient
but thats definitely not what i intended, or even wish for.


i know you can look deep inside me,
and when u do that,
i know YOU know, i m serious
:)



yes..
Open your eyes, and see around... everything is for you to get...for you to want...and for you to love.

that was for you!
Sandesh
:)

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u were that narrow minded...
OMfG!

seriously...
grow up and learn to appreciate truth more than the web of lies thts filling your mind!

:(

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Happy Fuckin' 17th Birthday!!


why dont i just get myself a tag saying
Beware: Causes trouble and extreme sadness for people within a 10m radius.

I mean, WTF!!
seriously..

i thought maybe it would turn out to be the best day of my life...
i mean, all this and that...
but




with the appearance of those fucking rays of the sun...everything just crashed into each other...
and all was gone...
puff...



FUCK!!!
bloody hell..
i m gonna beat the crap out of that person....if i get to him tomorrow...
and trust me, that might just be his last day...







i mean,
birthday's are s'posed to be a day when u are happy and all into yourself..
but guess what..


i started the fucking day by crying...
and crying over what???


over the most pissing thing i could have done to anyone..
why the bloody hell did i had to invite...
i mean, as if i m not screwed enough that now i m determined to screw other people's lives...



i think, this life is just better off to be lived alone...
fucking alone...
without anyone...







anyways...
to that person,



thnx... for that!!! i'll always remember it....
but that wont stop me from expecting another one next year...









and to that fucking idiot sitting out there looking at everything as though it were movie..
lemme tell you what.., EVEN THOUGH I KNOW U FUCKING DONT EXIST.

FUCK YOU! GO GET SOME ASS INSURANCE...COZ I M GONNA KICK IT REAL HARD... AND THIS TIME ALL YOUR FREAKING DEJA VU ISN'T GONNA HELP! I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF UR CRAP...NOW IS MY TIME TO RUN SOME SHOWS AROUND HERE.

FEAR ME!
I AM COMING!

well i s'pose y'all now know that...i m fucking pissed and angry..





there is always a soft side...
always a different perspective....



no matter what..
i wont leave you....

and what i say to you is true...and i'll abide them till i die...
ya


but the only thought going through my mind is the fact that whether i should just give up...
i ve given you enough reasons to be sad..

i made u go crazy..
i made o go insane..
and maybe i made u ..... maybe i just did..






hell..
i dont wanna talk about anything now..
i hope mom and dad understand...


have to study for the test...
freak..






cant wait to get my jersey on Monday!



:(

happiness come back...
night come back..i wanna fight the darkness again...


fuck off!

Hello darkness, my old friend,

Ive come to talk with you again,

Because a vision softly creeping,

Left its seeds while I was sleeping,

And the vision that was planted in my brain

Still remains

Within the sound of silence.






so let me get this straight
you say now you loved me all along
what made you hesitate
to tell me with words what you really feel
i can see it in your eyes you mean all of what you say
i remember so long ago, see i felt that same way
now we both have separate lives and lovers (and lovers)
insignificantly enough we both have significant others

only time will tell
time will turn and tell

we are who we were when
could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when
who knew what we know now
could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when

but thoughts they change and times they rearrange i don't know who you are anymore
loves come and go and this i know i'm not who you recall anymore
but i must confess you're so much more then i remember
can't help but entertain these thoughts
thoughts of us together

we are who we were when
could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when
who knew what we know now
could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when

my day late friend

so let me get this straight
all these years and you were nowhere to be found
and now you want me for your own
but you're a day late and my love, she's still renowned

we are who we were when
could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when
who knew what we know now
could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when

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