Happy Fuckin' 17th Birthday!!


why dont i just get myself a tag saying
Beware: Causes trouble and extreme sadness for people within a 10m radius.

I mean, WTF!!
seriously..

i thought maybe it would turn out to be the best day of my life...
i mean, all this and that...
but




with the appearance of those fucking rays of the sun...everything just crashed into each other...
and all was gone...
puff...



FUCK!!!
bloody hell..
i m gonna beat the crap out of that person....if i get to him tomorrow...
and trust me, that might just be his last day...







i mean,
birthday's are s'posed to be a day when u are happy and all into yourself..
but guess what..


i started the fucking day by crying...
and crying over what???


over the most pissing thing i could have done to anyone..
why the bloody hell did i had to invite...
i mean, as if i m not screwed enough that now i m determined to screw other people's lives...



i think, this life is just better off to be lived alone...
fucking alone...
without anyone...







anyways...
to that person,



thnx... for that!!! i'll always remember it....
but that wont stop me from expecting another one next year...









and to that fucking idiot sitting out there looking at everything as though it were movie..
lemme tell you what.., EVEN THOUGH I KNOW U FUCKING DONT EXIST.

FUCK YOU! GO GET SOME ASS INSURANCE...COZ I M GONNA KICK IT REAL HARD... AND THIS TIME ALL YOUR FREAKING DEJA VU ISN'T GONNA HELP! I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF UR CRAP...NOW IS MY TIME TO RUN SOME SHOWS AROUND HERE.

FEAR ME!
I AM COMING!

well i s'pose y'all now know that...i m fucking pissed and angry..





there is always a soft side...
always a different perspective....



no matter what..
i wont leave you....

and what i say to you is true...and i'll abide them till i die...
ya


but the only thought going through my mind is the fact that whether i should just give up...
i ve given you enough reasons to be sad..

i made u go crazy..
i made o go insane..
and maybe i made u ..... maybe i just did..






hell..
i dont wanna talk about anything now..
i hope mom and dad understand...


have to study for the test...
freak..






cant wait to get my jersey on Monday!



:(

happiness come back...
night come back..i wanna fight the darkness again...


fuck off!

Hello darkness, my old friend,

Ive come to talk with you again,

Because a vision softly creeping,

Left its seeds while I was sleeping,

And the vision that was planted in my brain

Still remains

Within the sound of silence.






so let me get this straight
you say now you loved me all along
what made you hesitate
to tell me with words what you really feel
i can see it in your eyes you mean all of what you say
i remember so long ago, see i felt that same way
now we both have separate lives and lovers (and lovers)
insignificantly enough we both have significant others

only time will tell
time will turn and tell

we are who we were when
could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when
who knew what we know now
could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when

but thoughts they change and times they rearrange i don't know who you are anymore
loves come and go and this i know i'm not who you recall anymore
but i must confess you're so much more then i remember
can't help but entertain these thoughts
thoughts of us together

we are who we were when
could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when
who knew what we know now
could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when

my day late friend

so let me get this straight
all these years and you were nowhere to be found
and now you want me for your own
but you're a day late and my love, she's still renowned

we are who we were when
could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when
who knew what we know now
could've been more but at least you're still my day late friend
we are who
we are who we were when