Sigh, Again I am back here,

this is just wrong! everything with you is going down the road that I dint want it to. Who thought I'd be so stupid to believe that nothing would change...?? Of course, Everything changes!! PERIOD! I wish I could turn back time, and flip back into the chapters where I told you what I shouldn't EVER have. I know its unfair to assume, what I am thinking, but every second longer I have to wait for you to say something, every second longer I have to wait for you to ask, I can't help resist but to think that the "magic" is disappearing away. Hate this ignorance phase, but is there a fucking way out of this??

I can't decide whether I am angry or just simply confused! I wish I'd find an answer to that SOON! Because, things are really turning south...

And again, without doing anything and just being completely honest... sigh, I hate to say, but I screwed up!

How easy it is for me to just appear somewhere and mess everything up. People think I am clean, and neat and tidy.. and yet I can't even wipe my own mess. What a stupid irony?! Maybe it's for the best, this time I shouldn't even try at all!

Sigh, I don't wanna let go of everything that started, spawned off! That was just awesome, really. I could live and RElive that the moment AGAIN and AGAIN and again! But I had hopes that maybe this time, i'd be living newer moments only to keep expecting more fresh moments to come. But, of course, THAT's not gonna happen... so what's the next step? Frankly speaking, I have no idea!! I am still hoping you'd understand certain things, and let go of, (and IF THERE IS), the fear!!

I'll be back here again, sooner than I thought I would..

But then, I am hoping things might have changed till then..

And till the next time, i wanna think about this...


Long ago
Just like the hearse, you die to get in again
We are so far from you

Burning on
Just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know

And what's the worst you take
(Worst you take)
From every heart you break
(Heart you break)
And like a blade you stain
(Blade you stain)
Well, I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst that I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Came a time
When every star fall
Brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold

And what's the worst you take
(Worst you take)
From every heart you break
(Heart you break)
And like the blade you stain
(Blade you stain)
Well, I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst that I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Well, if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight

Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend?
To leave and then
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide

What's the worst that I could say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long not goodnight

Well, if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight


sigh...
cyberbeast