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morning full of hopes...
hopes to do it and just say it to her
but seems that threads of life /\/ arent meant to be harsh
so i did not...as well could have become very embarrassing
for the 5 of them...? get it...
assembly passed on fine....
and then it all started...

Floor Ball
DRAW 0-0
DRAW 1-1
WIN 3-2
WIN 2-0
"WIN 1-0"

the one in the highlighted one is mine....i reigned the game LOL

then the finals....
dont ask me

was it....*missing text*
its like....situations after situation...

lemme tell you about in DETAILS

imagine you are standing...near the stage....
then the Ball comes near you
with the ball comes 4 or 5 bulldozers together...i mean the players lah
and they just whack their sticks at you
....you jump...land down..jump up..take the help of the stage and the people...and do a classic stunt...
land down jump again two times...
the ball is somehow hit towards the opposition's goal post...and you hear people
saying..
"Sandesh...man you are a daredevil....you some karate kid or what..""
i was like HUH....what the hell is that supposed to mean...whats so fantastic about being caught up with a ball....and some guys with sticks in the middle... and you just do "something" so that the game goes on smoothly...
another one occurred during the game..
you have the ball...
you are going....
someone fuckin dude just whacks the stick onto
your feet..
you know its a fowl..you can hear the whistles...
but you just dont want to stop....cause you
are in such a good momentum to control the ball... and thinking
of taking an advantage
after a while...when you cross... everyone tries to trip you
but somehow...you just give up
and in an essence to stop your momentum
you jump...in some person's views...(COOL)
and you come out of it...
..

i was deciding to do a 360 stunt....but thought ...that people
might count that as show of...speciallly.....some
so i decided not to do anything like that..

but still then enjoyed the finals a lot..
man i could feel the field strength
till the corners....

LOL dont worry if you dont understand bits about the blog....its supposed to be
understood and interpreted by people who know...

then the rest of the day was going on and on and on and on
and was not ending...

A FUCKIN LOOK MADE ME SO DAMN FRUSTATED....
i had nothing to do except show my anger on a BALLS

the volleyball
the floorball

i mean i dont know....was walking with something in my hands....
i never knew that...that the force was there..
and then *missing text* saw me....and

i dont wanna say any further...
that was like the most embarrassing thing for me../

i mean ... i can understand that there can be reasons
but i just dont get it when they dont tell me... e
and so so unnaturally...

never mind....what do i do about it..
get hold of a floorball....
go to the hall..play some informal soccer with gbrl
and then
played alone...
and guess what...
the ball
goes to the back door...

and what do i see................................

*missing text*

but i dare...go take the ball
continue on my own..

i fuckin kick the ball here and there...and nothin is so good about that...
i learnt something...

AFTeR THE DAY ALL I COULD THINK IS..

















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I M NOT SURE WHY nH IS SO SO DAMN ANGRY WITH ME....I DONT KNOW...WHY I COULD SEE PEOPLE WHACKING ME (THE LAST FEW WORDS SUPPOSED TO MEAN SOMETHING ELSE)
WHAT DO I FUCKIN DO ...IIIIIIII DONT KNOW....
LIKE A SETBACK
"MISSING TEXT* I WAS ABOUT TO TEL L
OR MAYEB FUCKIN BLURT OUT IN THE MORNING...THAT I
LIFE IS COMPLICATED AND THAT

I CARE ABOUT YOU CMON...


I M SAD...
BUT INVIGORATE WAS A BIT FUN LAH...NOT SO BAD

V11 ROX ...

i dint get to see u much around....but i knew you were there...and maybe you could understand why all this is happening..
sorry for not talking to you today..
i was just thinking about *missing text* or should i replace txt with name
i dint care about anytHing else...




but yups
i do love you

and that all that matters
my eyes are red...and my cheeks are salty...(dont ask why...? you know the truth)cry
just that the little possibilities are way to difficult to see....sometimes i feel like telling everyone...but then i m afraid....

please dont let this affect me.....

SaNdEsH
@dios


i dont want to leave you like that...but please dont force me to do so...i cant go against your desires....

i love you
and always remember....maywhat happen i will always be there for you...the reason why i m sad and not angry is because...i care....i care about you...about your life...and everything nice....

and above all i love you...even if you dont do that....

man i m already a victim of love...
remember the song by Good CHarlotte....LOL
maybe i will listen to it...





sandesh ....
i m sorry...please forgive me...i can understand that i am not worthy ofany forgiveness...but in my heart i m not so bad...afterall...i know that....and maybe with you around...i will never be..












hate myself...