alright...




this true ...

but i m gonna kill someone
someone's gonna die,
if i see another spark...





allrite..

well the past few days have been not so good..

the only thing i really enjoy doing is the dance practice with the rest of the guys..
well...something to it..



i can reach down onto one conclusion

"leave the soccer to the professionals...sucker, just leave it..!!!"

well, i really felt my heartbeat actually stop @ that moment..




i could see something...but it was too late for my reflexes to do anything.....bound to nature.!!


well ya...i can really see those...
oooohhh aaaahh....things going in your mind...


but for a moment..
i couldn;t hear anything..

but a weak and faint shout..

and b4 my hands could have done anything...
i could see it closing...and there..that was it..


rushing to provide as much comfort as i could..
...went down...and i wanted to fuckin'ly wanted to abuse..*****

but the crying made my heart go loose
...and what i was trained in soccer...i had to do it there..


"stop crying..." that was the only thing i wanted to say...but the words just dint seem to come through my mouth...and in vain i could only watch di, cry... HELL!

after massaging her head for a while...and making her sit upright, i could relieve myself coz...she dint experience a black out, and she was breathing normally...(her pulse seemed normal...although i couldnt count properly..)

she was brave...enough to dare to sit properly..
and i guess, even i wouldnt have done that..if in the same situation...




THATS THE FUCKIN POWER OF PASSION..which somehow not many people in this world actually have....


i felt really relieved when she stood up..




A SCIENTIFIC CONCLUSION of the incident
The brain is not supposed to with stand any sudden movements of the head. The brain muscles are very sensitive to instant motion of the head (the reason why we feel dizzy when we experience circular motion). The moment, the ball hit di's head, its heavy impact caused a sudden reaction by the brain and released a very sharp pain. The collision of the ball with the face had nothing to do with the final pain that was felt.... the movement of the head (due to the collision) released pain. The brain muscles contract suddenly and more brain fluid is created in order to maintain the balance of the brain inside the skull..., In order for the muscles to contract, the body needs to be @ atleast, 76% rest, which was of course not possible at that time and thus lying down straight on the ground and breathing heavily was the best option to release the tightened muscles. Another pain might have been experienced at night, since the body is in its maximum resting state at night ( but this doesn't happen in all head collisions).

During any head injury the only thing to do is to lie down straight on the ground and breathe heavily. Respiration is accountable for production of energy required by the brain to create the brain fluid which acts a "movement preventer" for the brain inside the skull.







and
what do you expect after that...



"something similar happened" @ the most fucking place on earth
"she faked it.." (((FUCK YOU)))





bloody hell..


the ball hadnt curled, otherwise something worse could have happened... (god forbid it doesnt happen)



but YOU dont worry...
smile till you can..




coz i am gonna make sure i curl the ball...
i m..


felt better after knowing that di's allrite now...




((((i guess, it was your luck or what, but if by any fucking chance you had curled the ball, i would have kicked the fuckin ass out of your smelly butts....for sure...and i heck care about the consequences..>)))



nvr mind...
the thing is



di's fine..




well...the dance practice has been going on gr8...and we are expecting to do gr8...





but i dont know why, i would always remember Victoria Idol over any other group dance performance with non-dancers i have ever given.....seriously...


maybe my perceptions might change..




well....
for YOU



Beware of ME





and for the others...
take care




well......i will try my best to reply to NJ...


such a long time...






but there was a moment...
when...
di
held my hand...



and i could feel the energy rushing in me...
i could have done anything that time..







i aint seeing her crying anymore..


i feel proud to be di's brother....


woohoo...you rock....


DI
















DI

SaNdEsH
Tk care




adios..




whats happening with you... imean....what is all that on your blog...





if its about me....then please i guess...you are wrong...i dont have any such perceptions

you are the same old...


for me..
you'll always be...