at last...

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Found some useful servers on Telokau Islands in the Pacific Ocean..woohoo..

for those dumbheads who dont know what i m talking about..

haha

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The Infinity
by Five point O

Learn To Give Up Fear
(then You'll)learn To Be A Friend
Several Secrets Of Life
Won't Be Learned 'till You Die...
(corus)
Birth, Work, Breathe
Smile, Awaken, Bbserve
Elope, Breed Look Into My Eyes And Believe In Me
Nurture, Divorce
Suffer, Cry
Acknowledge Existence
Discover, Die
Look Into My Eyes And Believe In Me
Cleanse Yourself Of Guilt
Unlearn Jealousy
Universal Vehicle
Voice Of Infinite Freedom
Look Into My Life And Bleed For Me
Birth, Work, Breathe
Nurture, Cry
Acknowledge Existence
Discover, Die
Look Into My Life And Bleed For Me
Soon Our Host Will Grow Ill From Age
And The Homes Of Today, Will Be Tomorrow's Tomb
Bleed For Me

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Thy past is of a shadow now... I can undo it not...
Speak not of my presence, see not of my coming, and breathe not of my leaving, and you will hear nothing more but the shrill melody of the wind...

cant take it...

i need to know soon...

as soon as possible..

ppl dont give up...(YES THIS REFERS TO ONE PERSON...and guess wht, ITS YOU- the mysterious YOU again)

hell...

yeah, thats wht life's slowly becoming...

taking time off for the job attachment is helping but still....everytime i come back...thts the only thing i can see...

in front of me...

its really painful, i wish i could tell it to someone...but
its just not the way it seems...

booked my tickets today... gonna collect it tomorrow..
but until the 3 weeks from now..

its still remains the mysteru period for me...believe me or not...its just gonna be one breakpoint...the next one (if there is any) would follow soon after some time..

and i'll have to put myself offlimits...

seriously...

F

sandesh

LP rox...
just discovered they had a distorted remix for What I've Done.

i dont matter... i dont deserve it..

F

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the third one in a day..
i think i'll have definitely have a heart attack by tomorrow..



fuck,

my life's gonna screw up in about another 2 weeks and here i m
watching harold and kumar escape from guantanamo bay...

as funny and ironical as it seems...there is more than just the opposite in it..
the emotions dont convey anything...



City of Fallen Angels
Cetra

Tell me the world holds answers for me; I need to know (to know)
Lost and trailing behind I know; I’ve lost my mind (my mind)
Here in the city of fallen angels; I feel alone (alone)
Will my journey end here I need to know

Trust isn’t shared but often abused
Trust isn’t shared but often abused
Will I have to put up with the loss of my mind, my mind, my mind…?

Knowing the battle has just begun; my story starts here (starts here)
Holding, I struggle within myself; the battle is near (near)
All truth lies behind closed doors; I must push on (push on)
Once again the battle wages on and on and on…

Trust isn’t shared but often abused
Trust isn’t shared but often abused
If I had the choice to stop I would, I would, I will

NO…Trust isn’t shared but often abused
Trust isn’t shared but often abused
And if I had the choice to stop I would, I would, I will




somebody help me...i m giving myself..
i dont want to..

please help me...
i m sinking....in my doubts...
doubts that shouldnt have raised at this moment...

never expected it like this..

the end is really becoming the end...

and then therewould be nothing after the aggressive and agitated full stop....nothing..
blank..
white...
not even a scratch...












F U









sandesh

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every passing moment, continuously reminds me of it...

i am a complete waste...
every hope laid down....i broke them...


every sacrifice made... it meant nothing...



i cant help thinking about it..
but maybe..


F

its so f'kin painful...
and i am so not ready for it...


wtf is wrong? i dont know...
maybe nothing is...maybe i m just thinking too much about it....


but then if that is the case, there arent many reasons to support me "not thinking" about it either...
so eitherways,,,,





nvr mind...
i'll try not to think about it...
but then till when???
someday i;ll have to face it...
and..


then...



dont know what will happen??!/!?!




h8myslf

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i m so doubtful..
never ever in my life have i seen myself in so much doubt...so much anger for myself..

but whts the point of thinking about it now...


but then the consequence is fearful in itself...
and i just dont want to lose everything i came to know....in a journey....




its just so painful...
but who'd realise it?? even the closest to me have given up hopes on me...

i am so fucking confused....
there is no way i can be happy at the least, smile..
even if i do, its fake..

but
it just feels weird...



every night...i think about it...
tears break free from my eyes...and ages after this....
i find myself...
in a chamber...

a chamber full of darkness....
even though there is a window...

i opened it and still there was darkness...
there is yet another window, but i am unable to open it...

i think i'll need someone to help me open it..
but whose this someone gonna be...



i can expect no one for the next 4 weeks...but maybe after that...there can be a chance...

and i m not too certain about help offered myself....please.
please..



i beg,
i dont want this to be the end...i want it to be the beginning..
th enew beginning...





i m sinking..and i m losing my breath...
i'll come up but, then will someone be generous enough to get me away from it...




maybe yes...maybe not..

i do hope for the former...





sandesh
:(

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here i stand again
trying..
trying..

but never upto the level...





and all the burden falls on to me, like the earth falling on an ant..
and then there is no reason why shouldnt...




but i still dont want to give up...
i know there is still a lot of fire left in me..
enough to burn for a hell lot of time....

pls see it..
and get it..

coz i am in search for a new beginning..
a new beginning for a perfect end...



haiz...
havent slept properly in the last 3 days...
and well, there is no reason for me to sleep peacefully either...



i wish...i can only wish...but now its too late..
and i m worried...
every nearing second increases my shivering..



anyways...i'll be back with part 2 of the post..


:(

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dont know whts gonna happen now..
i think i wont be as lucky...

FUCK

i cant believe it...
i just cant..


i mean, not as if i dint do it..or wht..
i ...i i... dont know



cant stop thinking about it...
its just too much...


my head so heavy with it...and no latter shall i receive the news and collapse..

fuck...
thats all i feel like shouting at the moment..



i mean, its really difficult to see everyone smile and be happy about things..
and i m here, trying to think about things...i never wished to think...



i m not aggressive enough...
i have to be stronger..
the fault lies beneath...and ..


nvr mind..
i m just purely sad..
and there is just one thing that can make me regain my happiness...but thats defnitely gonna take a hell lot of fucking time to happen and the probability of it happening is like so freaking little..



hate myself..

cyberbeast...

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Its a beautiful lie, a perfect denial
Listen to this song - "Beautiful Lie by 30 Seconds to Mars"
Its just awesome...
If have enough guts listen to "The Werewolf of Westeria by John 5"
its even awesome if u listen to good music....i mean i know ppl listening to GAY music, and somemore trying to sing it to show that they evn more gay than the song itself

well, this post is gonna be a very quick one, so those of you who are expecting one big chunk of "useless" text here--i m sorry..haha



anyways, getting on to the poing, things are really really really screwed up...
EOY's starting next week..woohoo cant wait for them to finish, i have so many things to do after it..




and for some people..
i think i conveyed this msg earlier too, but seemingly you wouldnt have bothered reading it...
so i thought i might want to highlight it again.





"If somebody bitter can be sweet enough to see every other person he sees as sweet. People who are "actually" sweet shouldnt have problems seeing others as sweet too"
in continuation..
The former part is quite valid...but the later part is nowhere near reality.


but i think it was seriously weird..haha, i mean
believe it or not, things can definitely be normal btwn these 2 people....

just that one is down-to-the-earth attached to his "not so good" attitude...the other one is too much affected by it..
i mean, does the fruit of doing good always rot like this???

haha

anyways..
bbye
Sandesh



oh and ya...i officially declare, NO MORE BLOGGING UNTIL EOY finish.
again, it might just be another "beautiful lie..."

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