Mama, we all go to hell.
Mama, we all go to hell.
I'm writing this letter and wishing you well,
Mama, we all go to hell.

Oh, well, now,
Mama, we're all gonna die.
Mama, we're all gonna die.
Stop asking me questions, I'd hate to see you cry,
Mama, we're all gonna die.

And when we go don't blame us, yeah.
We'll let the fires just bathe us, yeah.
You made us, oh, so famous.
We'll never let you go.
And when you go don't return to me my love.

Mama, we're all full of lies.
Mama, we're meant for the flies.
And right now they're building a coffin your size,
Mama, we're all full of lies.

Well Mother, what the war did to my legs and to my tongue,
You should've raised a baby girl,
I should've been a better son.
If you could coddle the infection
They can amputate at once.
You should've been,
I could have been a better son.

And when we go don't blame us, yeah.
We'll let the fires just bathe us, yeah.
You made us, oh, so famous.
We'll never let you go.

She said: "You ain't no son of mine
For what you've done they're gonna find
A place for you
And just you mind your manners when you go.
And when you go, don't return to me, my love."
That's right.

Mama, we all go to hell.
Mama, we all go to hell.
It's really quite pleasant
Except for the smell,
Mama, we all go to hell.

2 - 3 - 4
Mama! Mama! Mama! Ohhh!
Mama! Mama! Mama! Ma...

And if you would call me your sweetheart,
I'd maybe then sing you a song

There's shit that I've done with this fuck of a gun,
You would cry out your eyes all along.

We're damned after all.
Through fortune and flame we fall.
And if you can stay then I'll show you the way,
To return from the ashes you crawl.

We all carry on (We all carry on)
When our brothers in arms are gone (When our brothers in arms are gone)
So raise your glass high
For tomorrow we die,
And return from the ashes you crawl.


Sometimes in the midst of all the chaos we often forget about those who are struggling to be there, struggling to just even show their presence even though it doesnt really matter to anyone or anything. If you ask me, I AM in that situation right now. I have no idea what is wrong, or if there is anything that is right in the first place... but I promise I'll do whatever it takes on my part to make things right. But for now I need a fucking hell lot of time, especially after the end of A Division Nationals, for which we got the champion's trophy. I cried day before yesterday because everything came down so fucking hard on me that I had no other way to let it out. NO FUCKING OTHER WAY! I feel so lonely, and during all this everyone else is being at their selfish best. How am I supposed to get well? How am I supposed to get over this crying bullshit? I dont know and I really dont have any idea. But from what I can see or do... I will be having a lot of sleepless nights and tiring days ahead of me. I dont really know how much that means for YOU, but if it does... even a bit, then please TALK to me.
hate this feeling that keeps coming back again and again. I know I am a looser, LIFE you dont have to PROVE it to me again and again.

FUCK OFF LIFE
PISS OFF EVERYONE

The world is so bloody selfish especially you...
hate these selfish people and this selfish world.

:(

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Explosions in the sky - Your hand in mine


A glimpse into your eyes
A new certainty
A more serious love
Our future together
Your heart in mine
Time spent in eternity
Eternity is not forever
Bittersweet remembrance
Together in eternity
I'll never forget
Your hand in mine.




just love it...

"i rather know,
i'm going all wrong,
than to know,
i'm not going
anywhere at all


so where am i
in this spectrum?
for all i know is
that i'm not moving
forward at all."

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Its
too late
The scars are healed
Now I know how I feel and
Now
I know
That you lied all along
That it was so wrong

So, Now I try
Not, to cry
Its over now
And here is how

Because its the end
The story is over
No we can't be friends
Not when I'm this broken
So this tragic
Love story
I don't know how It can
But this time I'm sure
It's the end

So walk
away
I'm no longer a
Damsel in distress
Now I'm such a mess and
This is
The final page
The climax of this story
I'm sorry if its boring

So, burn this book
Get rid of these
Memories
I dont know how
Long it took
To get over this
I know I wont miss this

Because its the end
The story is over
No we can't be friends
Not when I'm this broken
So this tragic
Love story
I don't know how It can
But this time I'm sure
It's the end

So turn the final page
I'm exiting the stage cause it
Hurts to much to stay
Cause I'm wasting away
I just wish now that
You throw this book away

Because its the end
The story is over
No we can't be friends
Not when I'm this broken
So this tragic
Love story
I don't know how It can
But this time I'm sure
It's the end




i m always there..
please dont leave..
i m waiting and i'll never give up
coz u are special,
and i can lose everything
because u r the only one i wanna keep...



say something,
i m dying to hear...
smile a bit,
i m dying to see
be with me,
i m dying to find happiness..


uuuurrrrggghhh...
i m thinking too much..

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Everytime, I think of You
Even in these confused times, when the world is nothing but chaotic, I know that somethings are crystal clear and no matter how random they sound they always seem to make sense... because you are the You I think of, EVERYTIME. and I am sorry for tonight, I know i was being an idiot. Dont lose your cool. You mean a lot to me. :) I DID THE RIGHT THING. WHEN WILL YOU?

Everytime I see those eyes,
I feel like putting up my heart
at your knees,
Everytime I see that smile,
I feel like looking at the moon
and telling it - "Ha, you are not even close."
Everytime I hear that heart beat,
I seem to get that feeling, to do anything
to make it beat forever and ever.

Everytime I see you look at me,
I feel like freezing that moment,
and when you smile with that - "ooooh, I just cant seem to close my eyes"
Everytime you hit me,
I feel like being hit again and again,
Everytime you say "I dunno"
I feel like forgetting everything I know,
just to try and think like you.

Everytime you become silent,
I feel like screaming,
to break that "nothingness"
Everytime you laugh like a choking bird,
I feel like being that bird
who is saved by you,
Everytime I hold your cold hands,
I feel like holding an angels'
that powers me,
that strengthens me,
that gives me the reason,
to even die for you

But when I look at time,
I imagine the ticks and tocks of that clock,
running and pacing me,
and with every thomping move -
KILLING ME inside,
because I'll never know,
what you feel inside, whether it is the true nature,
or is it chaotic
and so when I die,
just do these few things
and I might live on and on in your heart...

Open your eyes, and smile
and let your heart beat and feel mine,
Look at me, and silently laugh at
all the times we've had together.
Squeeze your hands through mine and
hold them tight so that I know
you are there to pull me.




I am sorry.
I know I am idiot.
But know that no matter what,
I AM ALWAYS THERE.
WAITING FOR THAT MOVE..
waiting for that smile... with a smile.
:)

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RJ, stop emoing.... it doesnt make a fucking difference... i have no idea when you'll actually try to look at ur own situation from a different angle???
come on man...

i cant understand these complexities, never ever before this did u label everything in silence. But why now?? tell me abt it... i m dying to listen.
wanna rewind time?? huh?? well i'll tell you what...i wanna do that, in fact i m desperate to do that...so that i could have never done those things that i did... which is making me lose you...making u slowly drift away and away.... which is eating me inside... and i have no way to let it out... no way... it is making my heart heavier...heavier heavier... :(

i really dont mind when things dont happen the way, they are s'posed to... i mean, ya.. it does hurt inside somewhere deep... but i really dont mind... as long as you are contempt with it...as long you are satisfied..

why in the midst of those fucktards...do you have to pretend to be someone else?? why..??
dont.. please dont.. :(



i want the earlier to come back...
oh i still remember that awesome time...

but maybe things just dont go the way you want it to go... and i know i cant have everything in the world...
but to me, for once, i felt i had everything... but after that horrible sunshine,
everything just changed...
the fucking game started playing against me, and no matter what i tried to do, i felt alone. coz SILENCE prevailed...


all those failed conversations... all those texts and talks that i thought might tell me what happened... it just doesnt seem to work...


if what i told u is what you are thinking about...then please...DONT THINK ABOUT IT...
i mean if i really wanted replies for it... i would have done that LONG AGO!!!! coz as i always say before the idiot, crazy, weird, insane, idiot, dumbo person that i am, i m always something else before it and that is, to me the source that keeps me going.... HAPPINESS is my first priority... i just wanted to let you know thats all.. uuuuurrrrrrggggghhhhh i need to talk... shit!!

anyways about other stuff

oh
and for that idiot all you can do or say is "fuck off" (i mean, even though you dont even know the meaning of the words, which is quite ironical in a way but ya... for that - HAHA).. i mean everyone knows you are selfish, so why not try surprising people someday... Well, i know i had wrong perceptions, and i too am a vicitm of it, but none the less, all your "if u are...." blah blah crap is nothing but an abuse.. which also reflects your damned selfishness...



anyways i cant explain how i m feeling right now....but i think it is the best i can do for the moment...

I'LL EDIT THIS POST LATER ON.

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Oh baby here comes the sound!
I took a train outta New Orleans and they shot me full of ephedrine.
This is how we like to do it in the murder scene.
Can we settle up the score?

If you were here I'd never have a fear.
So go on live your life.
But I miss you more than I did yesterday.

You're beautiful!

Well I'm a total wreck and almost every day.
Like the firing squad or the mess you made.
Well don't I look pretty walking down the street.
In the best damn dress I own?

If you were here I'd never have a fear.
So go on live your life.
But I miss you more than I did yesterday.
You're so far away.
So c'mon show me how.
'Cause I mean this more than words can ever say.

Some might say we are made from the sharpest things you say
We are young and we don't care. (oh whoa ow)
Your dreams and your hopeless hair. (oh whoa ow)
We never wanted it to be this way.
For all our lives.
Do you care {at all}?

If you were here I'd never have a fear.
So go on live your life.
But I miss you more than I did yesterday.
You're so far away.
So c'mon show me how.
'Cause I mean this more than words can ever say.

(What'd you call me?)
(Well, there's no way I'm kissing that guy)





ya guys... just get the idea why this was put up...
haiz...


rj stop emoing for goodness sake...
it fucking doesnt matter coz even if u are doing for "whtevr reasons u have", the "reason" doesnt even know you are sad. Instead...
TALK god damn it!!!!

uuurrrrggghhh..
i m such a loser..

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