RJ, stop emoing.... it doesnt make a fucking difference... i have no idea when you'll actually try to look at ur own situation from a different angle???
come on man...

i cant understand these complexities, never ever before this did u label everything in silence. But why now?? tell me abt it... i m dying to listen.
wanna rewind time?? huh?? well i'll tell you what...i wanna do that, in fact i m desperate to do that...so that i could have never done those things that i did... which is making me lose you...making u slowly drift away and away.... which is eating me inside... and i have no way to let it out... no way... it is making my heart heavier...heavier heavier... :(

i really dont mind when things dont happen the way, they are s'posed to... i mean, ya.. it does hurt inside somewhere deep... but i really dont mind... as long as you are contempt with it...as long you are satisfied..

why in the midst of those fucktards...do you have to pretend to be someone else?? why..??
dont.. please dont.. :(



i want the earlier to come back...
oh i still remember that awesome time...

but maybe things just dont go the way you want it to go... and i know i cant have everything in the world...
but to me, for once, i felt i had everything... but after that horrible sunshine,
everything just changed...
the fucking game started playing against me, and no matter what i tried to do, i felt alone. coz SILENCE prevailed...


all those failed conversations... all those texts and talks that i thought might tell me what happened... it just doesnt seem to work...


if what i told u is what you are thinking about...then please...DONT THINK ABOUT IT...
i mean if i really wanted replies for it... i would have done that LONG AGO!!!! coz as i always say before the idiot, crazy, weird, insane, idiot, dumbo person that i am, i m always something else before it and that is, to me the source that keeps me going.... HAPPINESS is my first priority... i just wanted to let you know thats all.. uuuuurrrrrrggggghhhhh i need to talk... shit!!

anyways about other stuff

oh
and for that idiot all you can do or say is "fuck off" (i mean, even though you dont even know the meaning of the words, which is quite ironical in a way but ya... for that - HAHA).. i mean everyone knows you are selfish, so why not try surprising people someday... Well, i know i had wrong perceptions, and i too am a vicitm of it, but none the less, all your "if u are...." blah blah crap is nothing but an abuse.. which also reflects your damned selfishness...



anyways i cant explain how i m feeling right now....but i think it is the best i can do for the moment...

I'LL EDIT THIS POST LATER ON.