i mean....ya...logically it sounds so similar, but i never expected it to be so different..
i mean how do you think someone in my position would have felt like to be...

somehow somewhere....there is still that doubt, that i just cant raise, fearing the "aftereffects"..
but, all i can cherish is the fact that everything must go the way "it" wants to...

i mean who am i??
come on...
i mean, i accept i will feel bad...i will feel very very bad about it..
but then the only thing that will arise in my mind is..


who the f'ing hell am i???



feeling so lonely....so empty....no one to say "1+1=3"
but i hope things will change...
i mean, it always has...(towards the negative side),
but i am doing wrong..
i m playing it all wrong...


the element of the searching nature with certain features of ventriloquisms is being noticed...
the directions are diverging.... but the only thing that is still there..
is the physical proof..


but you are forcing me to reach a conclusion...
a horrible jar containing everything...
but as its fall is deemed, there will be that moment...where there will be no support..



well...

just came back from a walk with di and akshat...
went to the "Rock" haha..funny name
had quite an interesting time, trying to think about...


why the doubt was still raised...
and why could i see uncertainty in the thoughts..
left in the middle of the road...but i know this is going to come up again..


all i can say is...that, if possible, get an answer today..



well, as i was saying i was thinking about something that was like quite a good issue...
and around me was a good "environment"...agh wish those days come back...

with each wave, i thought all this wont be there tomorrow.., everything will depart in their own ways..but somehow...some people i would not be able to........
shit..

i dont wanna say anything anymore...but as each and every second passes by, it seems as if the END is coming near...
used to think sometimes that i could do anything....but now i doubt myself...
but i must strive to do in my best...coz at the end of the BIG day..
i am a lucky guy..i would say..

i mean come on
4years down the line....i dint trust any %(#*
but as soon as a i had a mental picture...


i knew that, this had to be it...

For four damn years...i was quiet..
for four silent years...i bared it all..



My %($* cane even stand against Mt. Everest...leave alone this...i cant even stand Olympus Mons...


i'll always be waiting...and my doors would always be open...
in a snap, everything will change...




hopes still in the heart!!


D:

Sandesh