a couple were in love for over a decade or so..they were so deeply into each other that the next thing they could think of was marriage..
then came the controversy..the girl was blind..and wanted to see the guy with her own eyes after some operation before she could accept him!!

the boy financed the operation for which he sold off his dearest possessions..
the girl could then see the world..but when she opened her eyes..she found the guy blind as well
she said" haha i cant marry you, coz u are blind as well..i cannot like you"

the guy deeply heart broken ...
turned away
but as he was going
he said to her!!
although i am disappointed at what u have offered me..i am still glad to see you happy instead as you can now see the world with my eyes!!
and he went off!!


people love is not done with the outward beauty of the person, rather with what the person's heart has to genuinely offer!
well i know a very very sudden change,,,,,i know

wth


SaNdEsH
SaNdEsH
Adios

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sandesh
loves u

BLOG POST
well i dont know,,,....
u tell me things that i would never want to hear from you...i take it...and i will take it...cause i will and i dont care how...i will always....love you.....no matter what...
well why did u tell me....why ...??? i was happy thinking....you were out of it and that you could have given more time...chatting and talking to me...than you know who,,,,

even then i love you...i only care abt ur happiness..but all i can say is i m heartbroken..

well to add a bit...
i know you wont ever accept...erm but well let me direct...
you know that i like you...but u urself dont know that... you believe in the indirect theory of material substantiation...or maybe should i say i made you believe that...

still then
i will always.. LOVE you

saNdEsH
Adios

Every post got clues...but only in the middle of the post....but its hard to find out or decipher it...

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ummm good morning guys...
just got up after a very very very long coma....(sleep in simple terms...i like making things complicated)i dont know what to do now...lol
i dont understand why dont people just ask others if they dont know how to do some stuff...maybe they think they know too much..why should i be affected with that...lol nvr mind...
dont know...why i just felt asleep at around 9 last nite! so am all refreshed after the "painful" shocks by IH and Physics...siao man
i mean couldnt even finish physics properly and IH was like...hell
well...after school (maybe better rephrase it after exams...) had fun with the guys....discussing our mistakes in physics...walked back with kundan sms'in someone and came back...
siao

oh...download complete...cool...(more and more sound loops)
well i never got time to think about u....i dint even know how time passed while doing the freakin exams....but i dont know..i got this feeling that exams are in some ways good..(coz some reasons i cant share now....)
dont think i would want to blog anymore...(only for today)
lol

btw
u rock
and i "simply" :) love you

keep on rockin

u




and
y'all

till then
SaNdEsH sAyS aDiOs
;)

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9 hours and 30 minutes to my first EOY...and i am getting a weird feeling.. dont know...
something weird....as if if...something is going to happen...well never mind...the EOYs are on top of my head....and its the only way to prove....so have to put on my best...
i m waiting for the next week to somehow pass on...so that i can continue with all the things that i had to leave in the middle just cause of the exams....
well i dont know...but some weird coindence happenin...
both of them sad .... something sad or painful happenin in their lives...and its all about the "exit"...looks like the downfall.."the downfall"
but all i can suggest or maybe do is to support you...cause i know its permanent now...its like Shift + Delete something.....but even then got that slight chance of reviving the thing back...(for unaware readers...Shift+Delete is not permanent at all...data can be restored back...or should i say...I CAN RESTORE BACK SHIFT+DEL deleted DATA) lol...
well have been talking* to you...and somehow i feel very nice to talk to you...i wish i nvr stop talking*...but unfortunately...i am the slave and life is the master....i wish my life was my slave...
i want to end here...cause need some rest before the exams

one last things (nice rite....one last thingS) LOL
EU's for life this week

He who makes her cry... i wont let you cry, i will torture you...
hehe is gay... (lol is in)
Lameness is helpful as it helps to provoke thoughts
Life is like a web of lies and truths....the more you want to come out of it...the more and more you get entangled in it...
The best thing to do with a reflective song is to break it apart and put it as a personal message on MSN (cause it does have some meaning, and can sometimes reflect life to a very deep extent)
Where the hell did humans come onto this earth"?"
This still remains the first question that came in the mind of the humans after the invention of the question marks....cant change history....
oh yeah one more

Dont care about the future....the present is wht is to be cared about...the past was a lie...

and
finally
the BIGGEST IDEA

I LOVE U

some deciphering can be done...but nothing so much interesting in this post...
love u

Adios
good nite
$@NdEsH


got a clue....? Share with me on msn...
sandesh_gade@hotmail.com

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just came back from school and i was thinking about some complicated things..

the past three days were quite ok...i mean not so interesting...
yesterday had the Hindi exam which was quite good...and maybe maybe

i slept at 5.30 in the morning today...and got up around 11.30....what was i doing till 530...dont ask...i was slackin....so nothing interesting...downloaded one of my favourite classic racing games....then after getting up...took my lunch...went to school, tried to study...and then came back.
Found ppl sittin. so had dinner with them...then then they were talking about some girlish stuff...and it was easy to spot some lies being delivered from here and there...but maybe that is how life is supposed to be....a HUGE WEB OF LIES...erm then people teasing me with someone...and dont worry i dint like it...cause it was about a person whom i respect, admire and care for(indirectly visible though but completely in my heart). I dont like ppl commenting about such people....i hate those ppl in simple terms...but this time i will somehow i will let it go cause i could control myself..
People asked me if i decided on any option for one of my previous posts...the one in which i talked about me being put in a situation with 2 desperately desired choices....well lemme tell ya...i am still stuck .... stuck like some traffic light in the corner of the road... i dont know what to do...cause from both the sides i am trusted..but even then, i dont qualify to be "the best". There viewpoint about...somethings...maybe be different..i know...but till what extent aah
i havent talked to one in ages (precisely since last week)
the other one i do talk to her a lot...but even then things dont wanna be better...

its like i am forcing myself to fall down the cliff.....which of course i dont want to lah....but for the very element of pleasure....the pleasure of defying gravity...and that too to do the last thing ever before i die. i dont wanna talk about this anymore...tears already (rock 'n') rollin down....but this might be the clue...

erm btw, thnx Nh..., if in case u dont know why...i'll tell you later...but u will have to wait for the "later" a bit too long...haha nvr mind...
Thnx "U" (the "u" is becoming a popular character for my blog wht (see the tagboard)...how cant i thank her....and erm i love u)
Thnx Kndn, Ysh, Kirn, Mhr, Ron, Ankt, Shbht, Nlksh, JoJo, Srv, Srnsh, Amy, Btra, Ashr, Abshek, Vpl, Sidhnt....

later tell y'all why...

aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh
incomplete post today...will be editing this one again

tk care
love u "U" and u as a reader too...hehe
Adios

SaNdEsH
:)

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complications, complications and complications...
i focus again on the same thing...

sometimes life is cruel enough to put u in a situation, where u are forced to select only ONE option, although u want the other one as badly as the one u think of choosing....well i am currently in a very similar situation...i dont know what is going to happen, or to be more profound....what should be happening...but this time its not the situation that i m concerned about....but the very inclusion of the concept of love here....i know all this might be sounding freakin dumb to you, but lemme tell you, it has meaning....my heart got something to say...but is scared...

something is eating me inside and, and i cant take it anymore....i need both....cant take it....i might have been unfair to one of em, by means of forgetting...but today i just realised....i was just about to commit a fuckin dumb and retarded mistake...and i thank god that even now....atleast i realised...what is the reality...there are people under the layers...its just difficult to spot them...why do we have to spot them out...is because there are reasons that dont allow them to come out on its own. i got to know one of millions of such stories around me...and it was enough to make me cry....enough to make me realise tht it was me who was with the wrong....
god dammed i was wrong...parting with bad....foes with the good.......all this is not as straightforward as it seems but all i can say is that i cant take it anymore...............the ball is not even on any side....its out of bounds....but then it cant always remain balancing in the center....although i dont mind trying to do that...

all this makes me realize ...
why the fuckin hell...was i so careless...?
god dammed, why the fuckin hell dint i realise that i was going to the wrong....or perhaps maybe i m now too...

where is eVeryoNe...? WhEre is sHe...or mAybe where are they goiNg? thE world iS So blAck....i need the warmth and the angel to guide me ..... through this darkness...

dont wanna say anymore...
sandesh
bye
good morning (logically its mornin wht...)

take care...u...i will always be there for u both....no matter if it costs my life

je t'aime

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hmmm....well this is just the first study break,....so more coming up late nite....
today i...nvr mind

got up...had some black coffee....left for school...dint do much in the first 2 periods...was slacking all throughout....was watching some videos...(of course videos of the songs she likes wht....her liking my liking too man...) but maybe volume too low..so dint get to hear much...somehow passed the time and the period finished...then had geography...and the usual periods....i feel lucky siao...dint feel sleepy at all in the lessons today...black coffee rox man.....am skipping the lessons...(cause nothing much interesting....the usual....me and my biasness towards technology, which can be quite easily reflected in the Lang Arts periods...) then school...ended....printed somethings...then waited till 4.15 for Kundan cause we all decided to go together....but then came to know about something bad....something which could have torn apart millions of hearts...if they were in my situation....i i i mean i never knew...about this...nvr ever,...although i did have some idea about it....but..why god?? i question.,...and i dont care i want an answer..
what could be the best....
u know* that person...very well...then all in the sudden of the afternoon, u enter the dark classroom......with your friends...(expecting to see no one there), but still see the person...then some questions and verbal communication and interchange takes place...and then suddenly u r urged to talk...or maybe ask....ask about the "condition" and the person tells u the "real" condition...or your face...and and i mean u can see what the person is going through when the person...talks to you...all i was able to do...was to mutter to myself..."I am sorry about that...!!"
I WAS NOT ABLE TO OPEN MOUTH TO SAY WHAT I WANTED TO AFTER listening ABOUT THE condition...IMAGINE WHAT WOULD THE PERSON BE GOING THROUGH...WHEN HE/SHE IS actually IN THE condition....I JUST COUDNLT GET IT OFF MY MIND....came back around 5 pm with Kundan...and rested for a while...the time i crouched on bed, the person came into my mind.....(hugged my Pooh) and I CANT BELEIVE THIS....BUT THOSE PAINFUL TEARS ACTUALLY ROLLED DOWN MY CHEEKS...i just couldnt control myself...and somehow...i felllllllll into a slumber and fell asleep....then got up around 6.20 and a wet environment around me...l8r realised...i had cried..went to the hostel canteen to have dinner, but i just could not think about anything else except the person....had a quite...lonely dinner today too...then came back....tried to think about something else...but the person just refused to leave my mind...i tried studying,....but i simply could not resist ...and somehow got the person's handphone number from Kundan.....i sms'd her....i cant really explain how relieved i was when i received the person's reply...
sms'd the person quite a lot.....and i just hoped...that i could go on like this forever and ever till the end of my life....maybe that is how much the person means to me...die die i want to see the person happy...i dont care about the way, the consequences....nothing...
incase u are the person,
i just dont know...but i really really do care for u,...and if ever in life, u ever need anything...anything....just give me a call....i will be there faster than the speed of light...k? and never be dissaproved of ur capabilites....u are the most ******, ******, and the most of the most ********* person i have ever seen...u are brave and i know u are mentally and emotionally quite strong....but all this is balanced on a very delicate BALANCE.....any light tilt here and there, can lead you to nowhere....

i dont care how, when, why, where...i will pledge to HIM for something...and i dont mind going against HIM...if my pledge isn't fulfilled....cant explain...in words...but tears are rolling down my cheeks...and i cant control it....

Sandesh

am confused...crap
di, i know i am being surrounded by troubles...but i i i am sorry...u are a very dear person to me...and i cant afford to make such a person...angry for anything....

I dont know what to say...but i am trapped
Help Me

*putsomethingmoreprofound

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