just came back from school and i was thinking about some complicated things..

the past three days were quite ok...i mean not so interesting...
yesterday had the Hindi exam which was quite good...and maybe maybe

i slept at 5.30 in the morning today...and got up around 11.30....what was i doing till 530...dont ask...i was slackin....so nothing interesting...downloaded one of my favourite classic racing games....then after getting up...took my lunch...went to school, tried to study...and then came back.
Found ppl sittin. so had dinner with them...then then they were talking about some girlish stuff...and it was easy to spot some lies being delivered from here and there...but maybe that is how life is supposed to be....a HUGE WEB OF LIES...erm then people teasing me with someone...and dont worry i dint like it...cause it was about a person whom i respect, admire and care for(indirectly visible though but completely in my heart). I dont like ppl commenting about such people....i hate those ppl in simple terms...but this time i will somehow i will let it go cause i could control myself..
People asked me if i decided on any option for one of my previous posts...the one in which i talked about me being put in a situation with 2 desperately desired choices....well lemme tell ya...i am still stuck .... stuck like some traffic light in the corner of the road... i dont know what to do...cause from both the sides i am trusted..but even then, i dont qualify to be "the best". There viewpoint about...somethings...maybe be different..i know...but till what extent aah
i havent talked to one in ages (precisely since last week)
the other one i do talk to her a lot...but even then things dont wanna be better...

its like i am forcing myself to fall down the cliff.....which of course i dont want to lah....but for the very element of pleasure....the pleasure of defying gravity...and that too to do the last thing ever before i die. i dont wanna talk about this anymore...tears already (rock 'n') rollin down....but this might be the clue...

erm btw, thnx Nh..., if in case u dont know why...i'll tell you later...but u will have to wait for the "later" a bit too long...haha nvr mind...
Thnx "U" (the "u" is becoming a popular character for my blog wht (see the tagboard)...how cant i thank her....and erm i love u)
Thnx Kndn, Ysh, Kirn, Mhr, Ron, Ankt, Shbht, Nlksh, JoJo, Srv, Srnsh, Amy, Btra, Ashr, Abshek, Vpl, Sidhnt....

later tell y'all why...

aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh
incomplete post today...will be editing this one again

tk care
love u "U" and u as a reader too...hehe
Adios

SaNdEsH
:)