oh wells...
why are things so confusing..

i mean...with the prospect of the fact that i appreciate more than others...
should directly imply what i need...


with not much time left...it was a race against time..
to prove to myself...worthy of being in a team..
and to prove it.

i had to life up a bit..



i dint care about the people who were there..
there was just one thing running in my mind...
do it for...
MX???

hahah lolz no..
i dint really care whether ppl were genuinely interested in supporting us or not...but all i know is that...i played my part..WITHOUT THE SUPPORT..


well.. today's match was one of our best performances ever (acc. 2 J Heng)
maybe one more match could have given us the confidence to win AT LEAST..

i scored a goal...and i did experience the joy of having contributed to the team significantly..
but still we LOST which is not our aim..

anyways..
i was playing my 100% today also...and felt much lighter....apart from the injuries that i faced..

but heck care about that....no one cares about it..

lolz


well...ppl living in a world of self denial..
and no one to guide through their self-created misery...
i mean no point in helping them out too...coz...its just useless..



anyways got chance to miss SL today....and chem too...
so ya..

and ermm..
well dance practice was again horrible...
i mean,....we indians just dont know the meaning of continuing a status seriously...
(EXCEPTIONS ARE ALWAYS THERE...but still..)
so ya..

how in this freakin world...are ppl expecting to complete a job laid upon them..
when they are freaking fighting over silly things..
ppl not even getting the jokes..
ppl showing their SUCKy a(Mby)ttitude for nothing..


haha
well..i am not really expecting anything good for the dance...
i mean...i will be happy enough if during the performance=....a single person feels like applauding from the heart..

ya..


and one thing for "those whom i have given hope" (which includes perhaphs MOST of the ppl here...and of course that doesnt include my angel)

F
YOU

take that in your face... or maybe you should take that as an inspiration..

well...tomorrow's a big day...and i am not really sure how i am gonna manage...



i feel a change coming..
i dont know why...but my lip muscles just doesnt seem to move these days..
they only do...when it should be..

nvr more than that..

i mean...ya i understand the fact that
"accompanying" elements can make the world a better place...
but then..
in the end its me whose getting affected..




well

The only time i can actually feel happy is when i sleep..
alongwith the sweet and cute li'l pooh, that i have...with me..)
i can actually feel the softness of the skin..
the thumping sound of the warm heart...that makes me feel like a baby in a craddle
whenevr i cry... i gain confidence not to lose hope and try my best...just by looking at it..
also raises my hopes...that mey what go wrong...
i guess...at the end of the day..
i have something by my side...to understand me..
i always sleep at a level below it..
coz...
i will always remain...the small one..




"the world may burn in flames...but the love would always remain in my heart.."








the surroundings are getting so confusing..



i dont really understand certain things..
but some comments just keep striking me back..

"trust..known more...and be"

and somehow...all the DRAMA also happens at the same place..
but no...
maybe there are reasons...
which i will come to know...


tk care
Sandesh

:D

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ANGEL

that day will be the end of this world...or to be very precise end of my life*
when...
we would part..

I <3 u
angel

and i will, forever..

ps.
i wasnt talking about you...in any of my posts..
i was talking about the others..
and i guess...you do vaguely know the reasons why...

k?

:D
Sandesh


*...(not even yours...coz i'll make sure, u live forever, i mean...i cant really predict the future, but as far as i know... you'll always have a place in my heart...regardless of anything..)

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recovering recovering...
but still shocked...


i m expecting a dramatic ending...
but will it happen..


i mean, with the prospect of things going wrong these days...i dont really think something like that is gonna happen...
its still trying to push me to kingdom come..

its all my fault...
but its still not too late..
i can catch up..

and kick up some ass..
next year.. if it ever comes without troubles..

Style...
Imba..

haha
but it will be true..

i am not really sure...
why ppl are saying things...doing something else..
and then acting as if they never did anything...
but i dont really care about it..

i mean..i have really given up on ppl...


whether its Angry... or whether its some f'ing idiot..

all i care about now is just this ONE..


had a very nice dream last nite..
i dont want to describe it....its too supernatural to believe..

but i wish comes true...
i'll consider my life worth if it comes true..

and to really make it possible..
i have initiated the Master Plan..
and i hope to see its success..



ppl remembering the past...
being haunted by the memories of the past..

but how to say... all that happened was a reason...and happened for something that wasn't really pre-decided...in that sense..
but
all i would say is..

Be Careful...
i dont want any element of sadness...coz of this..

but also keep in mind...that your decision is what is my stand too..

i dont know...whether the string will fit..
to fine tune... it
to give the perfect note..


maybe the vibrations would be correct..
maybe who knows..


i question..



tonite's practice was avg..
i mean...considering certain things..
ppl are trying their best..
but are bound by their attitude...to screw up their so called "best" which isnt really their best in any sense of the word..

so ya...


i dont know...the final outcome..
the high expectations of "others" would not be fulfilled by us...i am sure...
i mean...
this is not the way things are supposed to be done...and
especially when something is being done in VJ..

but i cant even make the others realise it..
got (l)amb(s), g(c)ar(s)and many others to kill the moment..

but as i have been mentioning these days..
i have given up on these f'ing ppl...

MAYBE they would realise what i
was always trying to say...and what they always thought
was OFF THE point...


let them ashame themselves..
lolz..


i dont even feel like watching...the "moves" (i suck @ paraphrasing) i liked..
and ppl can still encourage me to keep me away....even after knowing the HARD TRUTH...

Guess....i am not able to communicate...
heck care...


anyways..


a number of competitions lined up...and i have to prepare for them...

waiting waiting waiting waiting waiting..
for the next moment...


i'll try..


tk care
Sandesh
:D

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FUCK THIS GOD DAMMED WORLD...
enough of it..

"come on...lets run away from here..."


request valid for special people only..


:(

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sinking down and down
and down...into the ocean of failure...

i am trying...but the sytems aren't just responding..

the slap will improve...the drag isnt possible
the wrist is doing good too...
i mean....i will do drags when i get my own..


nvr mind...
my mind isn't just getting into things...


too worried about something...
something that cant really be described...

although i know people are gonna ask me..
but seriously i dont know myself...


and after saying that...
i know what the response is gonna be like...

but seriously...
i dont know..



i mean...ya
i am nothing...
thats...the feeling i get...

coz of the f'ing community here..
but i have already taken the decision...


i dont really worry about voicing out now, to make ppl's "little" efforts worthy of the "TIME" they sacrifice for all this...
i mean...
i "used" to give a thought about it...

and several times i have backed out from taking such a decision...

but i guess....when things dont go the way you want...
you have to take certain steps...that...how to say...MASSES wont find appreciable but maybe some ppl with working "COCONUTS" would try to understand..

i dont know why i am writing all this...
as if its gonna do any better for 'em...



HENCE....
to summarise everything...



I've given up on you ppl...
Tomorrow...will be the deadline...and
if not tomorrow....then
i have to put the least efforts for 'em and i guess...that would be acceptable for 'em



coz as a god-dammed freakin "group"
these things are supposed to happen


Limelight of darkness maybe..??

i dont care...

For y'all...
its not the experience...
its not the act of "understainding" the art...
its not the part about making things look complex in the simplest way possible..

physically or mentally


that is important...






for y'all
the onl f'ing thing that matters....
is yourself...
yourself....and
yourself...


i mean...
more than the HEIGHT of selfishness but still...
somemore ppl have such an ego....

like
wtf..

but nvr mind...
i dont care about it anyways...

i dont care whether ppl throw applauses at us...
or garbage at us...


My part is over. Period.
-------


today's 'dance' practice...was...i dont know...
i mean....i wasnt even paying attention...


Extreme floorball training had my body aching like shit...


i was so sleepy...i actually fell asleep..
but then woken up by Grka...screaming at the top of her voice...
alongwith some faint calls by "others" too...

i dont know....the content..
but i did hear...my name pop out...
at times....volume and pitch did cross limits...



but still...


i am still confused...
about whats happening...


give me clues dear...if dont wanna tell me "100%"
haha

i love solving mysteries....
---

nvr mind,,,guess
i'll do other stuff now...



More than anything...its just the respect and love that i have...that makes me look so "obsessed...."...
mabe you can actually call it "obsession" in some sense...
but still...there are other "elements too"


LOL
tk care

cia



Adios amigos

Sandesh
:(

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is it a puzzle or am i getting my mind into it so much that i end up screwing my mind everyday??

considerations had already been deleted...
but i realised that
the same was happening with a "freaky" series of sound waves..
which had a source...but there was no response even with so many receivers...

like wtf..

but i have taken a decision...
i wont contribute..


i heck care about it already..
so GO TO HELL(i mean, if there is one)...and stop following...

NOW
about the most shocking thing that happened today...

WE LOST...
we played well...LINE1 was trying harder than ever...
but the others were just not playing for Victoria...they were playing for themselves...


seniors are damn pissed off at us..
they arent even talking to us...

WE COULD HAVE GOD DAMN 'it WON TODAY"S GAME...


thnx..
to the people who came to support us.

and
sorry,
to those who dint come...
you are...

nvr mind...
there;s no point in this..

LEAVE IT...



had a light floorball game with the Air Rifle people...
OKAY
i owned....but it helped me to cheer up a bit after today's game.


I AM SORRY...if in any ways i couldn't fulfil your expectations:-

Jerad
J Heng
Denise
Edvard
i am sure, y'all are gonna check my blog...and i dint couldn't find a better way to apologise to y'all
about everything..on the part of the team..

man...today was like shit..
physics practical paper..
sucked big time..
and somemore..

"that"


dance practice was HORRIBLE as usual...
got ppl filling up their minds with all kinds of bullshit....like

running in the middle of the night...and then go sleep. (WTF....)
Denial of Public announcements (i mean....thats become so common that the PA system has undergone changes...and the DECISION has been made)

if you have been noticing since the past few practices...
i havent really been...how to say....even see y'all do the "conflicting"

i am doing that...so that atleast...
the "one" would note...and melt the doubts...


but i dont really see a way for all this to happen..
i have given up...but still

if anyone's still interested...
i am always free...
ALWAYS..


but as if anyone cares..




haha...i was watching ** play cricket...
she plays well actually..
hmmm


but still
the grief covered me...

i dont know what to do...


i will wait...
until the end of the day..
and the next day... and the next...
hoping with all my heart and soul....
to bring the time to a stop...
to reverse it..
and start it all over again...
so that i can express..everything that i wanted to...
again....to smile for it all over again...
to smile with it all over again
to smile by it all over again...


to smile with it again and again...

thats what i would call a perfect life lived...


------
humans are complicated dudes and dudettes...
never know what to do..
but i am lucky enough to know a "different" human...

i dream
but i am scared..whether it will be possible to achieve 'em

i will wait...
for it always...


pain would be converted to happiness...the moment it touches you
i mean it wont touch you at all..
it'll have to pass thru a "wall"
...standing tall and firmm...


to clear some
god- dammed trash.

SOMEDAY...






cia
tk care



SANDESH
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watever i do, i do after considering a hell lot of things for everyone....
but why cant i get the same in return..

likings and tastes can be different, but once the bridge is made..
i think everything goes parallel....
otherwise i slight difference can cause the bridge to break...

after listening various things from ports...
i am starting to believe the fact
INPUT > OUTPUT...



but...
is it true...?
or should i say..



should it be true??...considering what is being done..or what can be done...

i am not sure about it...
but all i want to do is to run away from it..

as if now i am not..
but still...

thats one of my dream thoughts...

to run away to the farthest of the regions...man has ever been to...with'''''''
but tears roll down those "powdery" skin ---(i dont wanna talk about it anymore...ppl are so busy thinking about themselves...that they forget the science behind stuff...)

coz..


as it seems to be happy...
it becomes more painful, seeing the clock tick every second....




i am still waiting for a sign...something that will prove me wrong..



well today was quite okay lah...
oh and ya..

jonathan came to school today...and we guys had a gr8 time...

so ya..


tonite's dance practice...
was less horrible than yesterday's or even the day b4 ystrday's...
but still it was horrible...

ppl just dont know how things are s'posed to be run... (pls dont confuse urself at this part..its something that few people know about...and most probably you are not the one...)
i mean..its so conflicting...

when decisions are taken without complete involvement...it is "expected" to fine with everyone...
but when a certain situation arises with the "same decision makers..." they make a fuss about it..


nvr mind..
i wont let that happen,
if i lead..

so ya...


i mean come on...
i have done "those" things..
like more than anyone of 'em around here...
even more than they can imagine doing themeselves....

but i not proud abt it or whtnot..

i agree with the fact that "talent" may be in-born..
but sometimes...
talent lags behind everything...
when it comes to the part about experience...


but why would people even care about it...
i mean they are living in their own frenzy world...which doesnt really seem to make any progress...

in any directions..;


(please stay calm if you dont understand any of the bullshit written above...as always, very few people know about it....and most probably you are one of them..)

something to reflect on..
MAYBE


"End Of The Beginning"
Here we are searching for a sign
Here we are searching for a sign
It's the end here today
But I will build a new beginning
Take some time, find a place
And I will start my own religion
As the day divides the night
Here we are searching for a sign
Watch the men multiply
See them ease out of the circle
Watch your friends run and hide
Help them fall back in this cycle
Here we are searching

You saw what you get
If you take what you take
Look in the eye of the test
It's all because...
Now there's a feeling I get
When I look to the left
But it should never be said
Start Searching for a sign

Can you feel it?
Things are changing
Can you see it?
Watch as the worlds colliding
Can you see it?
Can you feel it?
Watch as the worlds...
Collide into themselves
Collide into themselves
Another time, another place
Another time, another place
Some paradimensional race
Some paradimensional race

Searching


End of Beginning
by "30 Seconds to Mars"

tk care
cia
l8r


Sandesh
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today was very very very lousy..
i dint do anything at all...

except some small things...

i promise..
this wont happen again...



so ya...

i dont know what to say..
but tonite's dance practice seemed very different...

reflective of what people really think of the others...
and what poeple think about you..

i mean..., ideas apart
never mind...


but seriously,
i dint like that expression
i have done these things all my life...

but nvr mind...
ppl dont realise that....
and until
they would...
it would have been too late...



but once they do..
evrything will be forgotten..


haha



i really felt like bursting out...
but thought it not to be the best solution for the situation...


its really a mystery...
how people say something...
do something else...

but still...
they claim so much...



i mean what do you get of this??

if nobody wants to do this seriously...
i heck care about it too...but
do not complain about
** anymore....its not h** fault

i dont wanna listen any more non sense...
haha


i am sure...that more and more of this drama is gonna continue
in the next few practices....but until ppl really settle down...
its gonna be a rush...


oh and ya...
a gentle reminder...


i dont accept apologies...from certain people..
and i expect them to follow it...
haha


one thing is definitely for sure...

"the connection wouldn't be stable...unless the bridge is made of own Blood"
and i am an engineer trying to find alternatives...
to use concrete and iron to stabilise it...
but seems that,
nature isnt so fair...


playing games with me..
i will show 'em

something for angel
"May the world be against you, you can always count on at least 1 person on your side no matter what you do - whether right or wrong"

okay...fine...
i'll take back my decision...


someone just called..
i mean, ya maywhat happen to this planet.,..i wont be able to beat you in arguing..
and since i dont want to ...



so i dint think anything...and just said
what my heart considered best for her...


i am sorry...
i did feel bad that i might have contributed to the frustration that might have covered you during that small phase of time..

:D

ending here...
cia

tk care
Sandesh

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well...today was really confusing... and painful at times..
got up a bit late this morning, then rushed of for floorball training, which was really interesting in a way if you see...lol
played a very very very very very friendly match to train the girls' team,
was really fun...
meanwhile Gerald was teaching me tricks...and J Heng was trying to dribble the ball past me... lolz...


so ya..
then
came back..
had a quick bath
and lunch...

left for hindi school..
not bad though...
the environment seemed nice...

attended the holi celebrations there which was "bearable"
but at times... torturous..
haha

danced on mauja hi mauja....the tune is still ringing in my mind...
had 2 hrs of nothingness...haha

then went KFC with Di, Ambalica and Sanchit...
which was quite fun...

i was troubling angry amby till the end...
haha

enjoy till you have it all...
cherish the moments...
before you lose it all...
and be all by yourself...

interesting moments coming back...
@ This BUDGET shop @ Boon Seng MRT


haha
but even then
'perceptions'



the only word appearing and appearing more brighter in my mind...
i mean, i just dont know...
surprises were in store...i already had the idea...but they could have been so bad...i dint know!!

why did you think like that....i still dont know...








but it did change my mood for while then...

i was thinking about it only...


but never mind...i am happy on the other hand...


so ya in a way everything cancels out in the end...
lolz



dance practice in my terms was really "horrible"
i mean come on....punctuality is something that we indians are never gonna learn...
on top somemore, at the cost of the li'l time that we have....we arent even sure, whether we should be continuing with the same melodies or not....
plus no one is serious about that...








multiply frustation and anger among the people for each other...

i mean come on....
nvr mind...its no use anyway...
i mean no one is genuinly interested in listening anyways...













not a very rare problem too...
but i guess....i haven't been the only victim...


and if there is no progress...
then people dont even have any other options to blame...

and at the end of the day....
its innocent ppl having to hear the complaints...

like wtf...

nvr mind..
i guess things will reside slowly...
but personally, i dont feel like doing the dance...seeing the "highly toxic levels of enthusiasm" of the people...

HAPPY HOLI anyways...














the countdown begins...
and i am gonna show...
the race is still on, and i am not gonna go blind...
i will bear it all till the end...




















so well..
rest of the things are fine too...
but i guess...

True moments can only be felt...not seen

so truely said..

but one thing, i do understand the depths...and maybe

hahah
















so well i had promised someone something....and i dont forget promises so easily...
this one's for you...

A Sister Just Like You

I just want to let you know

You mean the world to me

Only a heart as dear as yours

Would give so unselfishly
The many things you’ve done

All the times that you were there

Help me know deep inside

How much you really care
Even though I might not say

I appreciate all you do

Richly blessed is how I feel

Having a sitser just like you

I’m so thankful

I have a sister

like you to count on.

I know you’ll always be there

with open arms if I need a hug,

and an open mind if I need someone

to understand.

I’m so glad that I can

be myself around you.

You know my qualities and my faults.

and you love me just the same.

I’m so proud to have a sister like you...

not just for what you have accomplished,

but for who you are.

I’m so lucky to have you to talk

and laugh with ...

to reminisce and make new memories with.

I can’t tell you how much it means

to have a sister like you.

You’re one of the most important

people in my life.

Thanks for being ...

... a sister like you.

Loves,

Sandesh

4ever...
keep on rocking..




maybe chances would exist and the style would explicitly exploit, the potential of the friction less sphere, with the projectile motion accompanied by the emotions...into the metal frames...

but it would be even more than that...
if ppl support me...





pls support the IP floorball team....we are in desperate need..
i am risking too many things for it...







:D








tk care
cia

adios









Sandesh
CyberBeast iDJ

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well...to day was very very serious...
i dont know why..but it just was...

but i did reflected on something...

today the feathers felt different...
at one point of time...i got freaking depressed coz of it...
but things are fine now... (REASONS REASONS REASONS)

but i have to accept this in this whole freaking world...
the only thing that really scares me or something that can scare me like shit...

err...**'s and ***'s anger..
i just cant see 'em like that with me...even for a while..
my heart melts like burning iron..

so ya..
haha

had floorball training from 7pm to 930pm at night....so i was busy with that tonite..
but during training, i felt different..
i was really feeling light...and i dint quite have to put in so much effort in playing...
i wasnt feeling so tired...
maybe thats the environment created when you play against your fellow Victorians...
haha


but tomorrow...
i have to score...

i mean...my position is one of the most crucial in the team...
i play right center for Line 1 (s'pposedly the best line in any floorball team)
and
i have to be the roughest and physically tough guy...

for which i need ppl to support me...aaaaarrrrrgggghhhh


nvr mind...
i will prove this path wrong..
i will take attempt it this time....

VJC vs. Bukit Merak (aka Merahans by our coach Ian)
4 vs. 1


well...
well i am still waiting foran sms...
hope everything's fine...and nothing is serious...

i cant resist thinking abt it...

but i guess...
the angelic eyes have hibernated in the cute bliss of nature
which is something i would have wanted too...

tk care guys et gals
cia

l8r


Sandesh
:( get well soon...if things are serious..

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everything seems so nice...so so enchanted..
reminds me of ella enchanted...
lolz









but true to its nature...
loyal to the game.... (haha saucony slogan...i know i know)


i am not too sure about anything...
all i know is that i cant see any wrong happenings in the big game...

neither can i tolerate any sparks...






so ya...
the eNiGMa was delivered...
and i feel i did the right thing...
i mean i would have done it any ways...
nothing so gr8 about it...
but still





today's floorball match was an interesting one..
i took 7 on target shots (all blocked by keeper)...
2 off target...

surprising..right...
but the facts dont lie...









my jersey number is also 72...

today's game was less rough and physical...but more of tactical play...which somehow we VJ IP people got trapped into..
but towards the third period of the game, things actually started to go back on their places..
and LINE
1 ( i play for this line...which regardless to say rox...like...er **)
and LINE
2
were doing what they had to do..

kick some ass and scare the others..
if and if i could have only lifted the ball....
if and if..i had done that...

but style comes later....sportsmanship first..
(even if it costs you to miss a goal)









but i need to train my drag shots...(somehow i could use a lot of 'em in today's game...)

seniors came to support us...
although they had high hopes on us...
but somehow...those hopes...just couldnt cross into our garbaged brains...








i hope....MORE people come to support us...gives me more strength to play rough...
(but i appreciate those who actually did....thnx)















NEXT MATCH

National B Division Floorball

VJC vs. Bukit Merah
Thursday
12.00 PM
ITE Macpherson
BUS FROM SCHOOL LEAVES @ 11.00am

we'll be training from 930am onwards...so you can enjoy our training session as well if you are so excited about seeing our match



but things will change...
they will




the time has come again...
to go beyond boundaries...

and show that you felt bad for it...
but i dint really see anything much...

but i am sure.. i will...



well ....

things are deviating...
i can feel it...
but i will try and stop it...

i will amaze everyone...mark my words...


sorry for the small post...
just returned from Dance Practice...

(like DUH)
haha
get it..????

i am just cherishing the days that are left...these magical moments wont return back...and then i will cry for it...
i have the power....(haha like HeMan or something...ya its the slogan of that superhero...lolz)

i mean how can i forget....there always something for someone
We share so many memories
-things only we could know.
Thank you for being a treasured part of my past,
A joyful part of my present and
A promising part of my future.
I love knowing that you will always be my sister
and a very special part of my life.

We share a special bond
that grows stronger through the days.
Looking back on things we've done,
I realize that some of my happiest memories
are of times we've shared.
You give me the freedom to be myself
-there's never a need to pretend.
I'd like you to know there will always be
two special places in my heart for you A sister My best friend
L8r
cia


tk care-






























Sandesh

My Sister and My Friend.

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i dont know...
distances are growing even more...and i am
planning to go to the moon!!!
but nothing of this is gonna work..

i mean...at the end of the day,
i'll have to clear it all out...
coz i am always the one who is wrong....

i mean ...i am wrong...
i was born to be wrong...

but i guess...
i have a few options left still...
there was a reason...there was a pride...
and i respect it more than anyone else on this planet...

but sometimes, when things go wrong...you cant just blame!!!

but nvr mind,...
why am i even saying all this..
in the end.i have to end it up the contemporary way..
so ya...

well...after writing the post ystrday...
i am convinced that atleast some1 wants to undrstnd me, i mean
yes...

thats the good part about it...
and i am still waiting to understand the meaning of
reality ain't so distant....
confusing...
but definitely packed with meaning..
and only art"ish' people can undrstnd it...lolz

well...
i dint know, that changing hindi centre was "that" simple....i mean
literally i dont even have to do a single thing..

i should have called teacher b4 going today morning...

hindi school....was a complete waste of time...and sleep...

well ya...
sleep's becoming a very "sensitive" issue these days..haha
but i am content that i dont feel tooooo sleepy after floorball training..
oh and ya...i noticed this last night at dinner time...


my second pack will be visible soon...
woohoo...
my target - 3 packs...

coming soon...
lolz


well that reminds me..
i am doing up an even cooler version for the new IP website...
its gonna be the best piece of work...i would have ever done..
but yes....its gonna take some time...
just need time and proper content...


well...i just hope that engel would be able to support me...
coz...i am gonna run with the wind...
stop me if you can....
SWISHHHH..





well





i feel good...
i will do good...

i will
for i have the brightness of gold,
the shine of silver....
the style of the platinum...
and support of the angel...


l8r
tk care guys....next weeks gonna be fun...
72 will be in soon


SaNdEsH
gone.......
<3

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the view and feeling was so surprising...!!

i mean it just popped out in front out me....
but i dont know...

coz...
everyday situations are "pretended" is it?
but its done up so carefully that even i cant spot the difference...but to truely ask..
is this any less than cheating?

i feel like crying but i wont....
coz some part of me can still see the "real" one..

no one can understand what i felt at that moment...
no one...

feel so lenely...

i am in a state of dementia now...
6hrs of floorball....is making me reflect...


but shit...
i just cant forget the thought...

i am sorry...but

nothing is right around me...

i had some hopes with some...
but i guess...i was wrong

maybe i'll tell...no wait!!
i'll talk about this with angel...
maybe she would have the answers....

well...this week has been a mess...and i am trying my best...
only floorball's the thing keeping me away from boredom...

and well...
...got hurt....and you wont believe this...
sometime around the morning that day, i experienced something similar....
after training....i got to know of "it'

well...i couldnt sleep properly that night....thinking about the state of the delicate piece of a diamond which had accidently undergone figure transformation.....
okay fine....
i confess...i cried too (had many reasons....but this was one tooo)
hugging the baby pooh was quite nice....
and convincing enought that everything will be allright...


and to my surprise....
the next day....

things were actually in their places...
they were present where they had to be....

it really made me feel nice....but the sight of the delicate and cute li'l piedi

no serious serious...
its very small and very cute....

lolz


nvr mind..
the thought will of course come back...and the efficient test would be qualified when i'll be made aware of the hearing...and the blabbering...

l8r
tk care
Sandesh
:D

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back after a seemingly long time..
just dint realised how it passed on so fast...


but never the less...
had a very interesting time last week...

Review Week - All the papers were quite good..(i'll be happy enough not to fail any of 'em), i did not give the bio and physics paper due to SSEF,,,,so ya

SSEF - My project did not win anything, but i am happy to qualify for the second round... the exhibition was quite good...except for the food (which was of course fulfilled by KFC and McDonald's ..lol)
my judges were quite astonished by my skills...but none the less..

Singapore now wants to f'ing promote bio research coz this piece of island wants to become a research hub...
and as they say...
S'pore has progressed too much in IT...

i mean come on....i can understand the fact about the research thingie...but that doesnt mean ppl should start discouraging IT... (SSEF '08 only had 2 bronze awards)...i mean wtf..

even the judges couldnt have done a shit at our age..

well...i am not disheartened..
i have things in mind..
and next time..
something big is gonna happen..
and this is gonna go straight into their FACE...


wait for that..


yesterday was quite a nice day...
going out..in the light breeze of wind....
seeding the plant of dynamics and streamlined motion in ppl...
and how even "i" was helped by them in reaping the plant..

was quite a memorable night, i would say...with all that...and
of course...i
had one thing in mind...


this wont be here forever...
will end..

trying to cherish the moments....had a nice time, trying to peel off coconut cream...
and of course...
feeding with my own hands...


i just dont have anymore to say...
but yes...
there is more than those 8 words in the sentence....but hard to spot...
coz...its something that is true to it identity...
true to nature....

true to my heart...





tk care guys...
will write more...
next time



cia
sayonara
Sandesh

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Twinkle in the droplet of the angelic eyes...


the picture is clear,
the beat is in,
the rhythm is looping..

i have no more to day..
all i had to say, i said it in the least simplest way i could...

people think different,
as expected, beauty always lies in the eyes of the beholder(s) [haha...lolz about the extra 's']

the world just seems to pressurise metal, to get the best form...
but sometimes, the outlines arent the only things that matter,
the colours inside, is what makes the sketch even more meaningful,
but

is it justified, with the prospect perceiving true beauty??
i question...


well,
at last, i could a certain "nice" flavoured elements in the meal, and somehow, the CHEF liked it..
or atleast he/she did..
coz,
you never know..

well..
it is indeed true, the earth may have the precious of the precious gems.... diamonds, emarlands, precious of the precious metals...gold, silver,...
but even then
platinum would always be the one remembered...
coz of factors..

the platinum would be of more importance than any piece of gold, silver or diamond....
i have always preferred the platinum, and should i say in my views....
gold, silver or anything would have a position far far far far far away from platinum..

it just is like that...it always has been like that..

platinum is so so so
different..
so so
unique...
so like my ***

aha
i m not gonna say that..




flowers blossom, and the seasons change,
but around me, coz of ' ", the season is the same all around....and the flowers always blossom...

the season of love and the flowers of respect...

a good package might even include many other extra-terrestrial components...
but i heck care about it...i mean
let love be love...and not some freaking business deal..
for business deals with me
goto

my company's website...



well...i dont know what to say...but all i know is..
that above all, above anything

you mean a lot to me....a lot more than just "the words saying you mean a lot to me"
dont ask me why....
coz even i dont have any answers....
the only answer that i can think of is...


err...welll
a blank pause...thats it...

but go deep inside me, and you'll see why...
you'll see all the answers...


but as my thoughts have started to count down....
its not long enough, that....
the season will change...and flowers would have to go DRY>>>DRY>>>

but as i remember your words...
"i'll have to go someday"
i am trying to prepare myself...of the unknown variables
and the algorithm of life....




CHANGE>>.





haha

and ya...
i am not scary...
dont know, why ppl think i am scary...

haha

i mean, i might have those...daredevil looks and my words might reflect something abt it...
come on.....there are other sides and angles ...too


right??

never mind...all that matters...
is





Sandesh
22:22 - the time is set...the mood has been made...
the design has been made...
only a collage will tell you


wait till then...

<3

tk care
guys n gals..



;)

twinkle in the droplets of the angelic eyes...

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