oh wells...
why are things so confusing..

i mean...with the prospect of the fact that i appreciate more than others...
should directly imply what i need...


with not much time left...it was a race against time..
to prove to myself...worthy of being in a team..
and to prove it.

i had to life up a bit..



i dint care about the people who were there..
there was just one thing running in my mind...
do it for...
MX???

hahah lolz no..
i dint really care whether ppl were genuinely interested in supporting us or not...but all i know is that...i played my part..WITHOUT THE SUPPORT..


well.. today's match was one of our best performances ever (acc. 2 J Heng)
maybe one more match could have given us the confidence to win AT LEAST..

i scored a goal...and i did experience the joy of having contributed to the team significantly..
but still we LOST which is not our aim..

anyways..
i was playing my 100% today also...and felt much lighter....apart from the injuries that i faced..

but heck care about that....no one cares about it..

lolz


well...ppl living in a world of self denial..
and no one to guide through their self-created misery...
i mean no point in helping them out too...coz...its just useless..



anyways got chance to miss SL today....and chem too...
so ya..

and ermm..
well dance practice was again horrible...
i mean,....we indians just dont know the meaning of continuing a status seriously...
(EXCEPTIONS ARE ALWAYS THERE...but still..)
so ya..

how in this freakin world...are ppl expecting to complete a job laid upon them..
when they are freaking fighting over silly things..
ppl not even getting the jokes..
ppl showing their SUCKy a(Mby)ttitude for nothing..


haha
well..i am not really expecting anything good for the dance...
i mean...i will be happy enough if during the performance=....a single person feels like applauding from the heart..

ya..


and one thing for "those whom i have given hope" (which includes perhaphs MOST of the ppl here...and of course that doesnt include my angel)

F
YOU

take that in your face... or maybe you should take that as an inspiration..

well...tomorrow's a big day...and i am not really sure how i am gonna manage...



i feel a change coming..
i dont know why...but my lip muscles just doesnt seem to move these days..
they only do...when it should be..

nvr more than that..

i mean...ya i understand the fact that
"accompanying" elements can make the world a better place...
but then..
in the end its me whose getting affected..




well

The only time i can actually feel happy is when i sleep..
alongwith the sweet and cute li'l pooh, that i have...with me..)
i can actually feel the softness of the skin..
the thumping sound of the warm heart...that makes me feel like a baby in a craddle
whenevr i cry... i gain confidence not to lose hope and try my best...just by looking at it..
also raises my hopes...that mey what go wrong...
i guess...at the end of the day..
i have something by my side...to understand me..
i always sleep at a level below it..
coz...
i will always remain...the small one..




"the world may burn in flames...but the love would always remain in my heart.."








the surroundings are getting so confusing..



i dont really understand certain things..
but some comments just keep striking me back..

"trust..known more...and be"

and somehow...all the DRAMA also happens at the same place..
but no...
maybe there are reasons...
which i will come to know...


tk care
Sandesh

:D