"i wish i could have given more than you could have ever imagined..
wish i could have given you that voice to your heart, so as to get inside it and defeat all the evilness in it."

i have no idea what it is.. i really dont. i wont even force you to tell me, either.
i faintly know what is making you think so much about it. But i have no idea why YOU are giving so much to it, when you know you dont...

then why bother about it anyways??

i cant understand it..


and sadly enough, i feel like a failure AGAIN.
i have no idea how to make things better..
i have no idea how to tell people about it..
coz its just something people are not gonna appreciate..


BUT
there is no way i am gonna let it go..

i mean come on..
i m not the one who'll give up..






"ITS NEVER about me... if it was, then i'd be snoring on my bed. Its about you, and thats why i'll sacrifice everything, me included."




If you wanna cry, tell me we'll cry together
if you wanna scream, tell me we scream together
if you wanna laugh, tell me i'll make you laugh even more
if you wanna let go of your smile, tell me & i'll die to protect it.

thts how much you mean to me..
but somehow you just dont realise that..
or perhaphs that is what i feel.


i feel sad and helpless (same qualities as of a perfect FAILURE).... i felt like screaming..
and i meant it..
but,

never mind...



the day you'll realise why i m doing all this, maybe then would you cry your heart out, OUT OUT OUT.
evn though i dont want you to cry but i definitely want that day to come..
this is so freaking painful..



anyways,
yesterday was quite fun. Cross Country was fun... i came in 161th (personal best) of the 800+ guys. yeah!!
my house came in second overall.. floorball was second runners up for Inter CCA run.



RP match was also quite tensed. its way different when u play against a bunch of National players... but none the less, i hope i learnt something out of it..got banged by 2 guys together...that was seriously the worst of it..

i assisted one goal, for which i am really happy abt, i guess, i could have played better.


went ecp after coming back...went to the viewing point, ended up being called to th ehostel to meet some guy. i'll go there again... its freaking relaxing.

came back to the hostel, found about the weird incident that happened....went up and slept.






i feel like an idiot (i have no idea, why i need to feel like one...)

today is hindi CA1 and i have no idea what is gonna happen..








i'll keep a cool mind..and go through everything, but i'll need you by my side di.
yeah..

:(






We Are One Tonight
Switchfoot

Check!

Tonight!

Tonight!

I'll rise
I'll fall
I'll fail you all

We built these cities to stand so tall
We've lost our walls

I don't want to lose it, coming down
With the whole world upside-down
I don't have a soul to trust in now
With the whole world upside-down

We are one, tonight!
And we're singing it out!
We are one, tonight!
And we're dreaming out loud!

And the world is flawed
But these scars will heal

We are one, tonight!
Tonight!
Tonight!

Two eyes
One tongue
I've come
Undone

I'm no victim
I paid these dues
I came to lose

I don't want to fight about it now
With the whole world upside-down
I don't have a soul to trust in, now
With the whole world upside-down

We are one, tonight!
And we're singing it out!
We are one, tonight!
And we're dreaming out loud!

And the world is flawed
But these scars will heal

We are one, tonight!
Tonight!
Tonight!
Tonight!
Tonight!
Tonight!

I don't want to lose a common ground
With the whole world upside-down
I don't want to fight about it now
And the world was burning out

Let's slow the evening down
Slow it down
Slow down
Please slow down
Down
Down

The stars are comin' out!

We are one
We are one
We are one
We are one tonight
We are one tonight
And were singing it out
We are one tonight
And were dreaming out loud
And the world is flawed,
But these scars will heal!



Tallulah
Sonata Arctica

Remember when we used to look how sun sets far away?
And how you said: "This is never over"
I believed your every word and I guess you did too
But now you're saying : "Hey, let's think this over"

You take my hand and pull me next to you, so close to you
I have a feeling you don't have the words
I found one for you, kiss your cheek, say bye, and walk away
Don't look back 'cause I am crying...

I remember little things you hardly ever do
Tell me why
I don't know why it's over
I remember shooting stars, the walk we took that night
I hope your wish came true, mine betrayed me

You let my hand go, and you fake a smile for me
I have a feeling you don't know what to do
I look deep in your eyes and hesitate a while...
Why are you crying?

Tallulah, It's easier to live alone than fear the time it's over, oo-ooh...
Tallulah, find the words and talk to me, oh, Tallulah,
This could be... heaven

I see you walking hand in hand with long-haired drummer of the band
In love with her or so it seems, he's dancing with my beauty queen
Don´t even dare to say you hi, still swallowing the goodbye
But I know the feelings still alive, still alive

I lost my patience once, so do you punish me now
I'll always love you, no matter what you do
I'll win you back for me if you give me a chance
But there is one thing you must understand

Tallulah, It´s easier to live alone than fear the time it´s over
Tallulah, find the words and talk to me ,oh, Tallulah,
This could be...

Tallulah, It´s easier to live alone than fear the time it´s over
Tallulah, find the words and talk to me ,oh, Tallulah,
This could be...

:(