now

that

was

way too

far away

from what i was expecting..


why is "everything" changing so much...?? why cant we realise, that whatever form we are in, we are still ourselves only...? Changes come and go...but that doesnt make you...

at the moment...
i m not in a good condition to write anything....nothing at alll...

but even then...i would like to dedicate this post to some people for always or in any ways being there for me.....

wish...i could tell you how much it feels to be here...
sometimes...i feel that i should bombard with sms's and force
but to be true...i just cant...cause i want to be as natural with you as possible...

i always...cherish everything...i still remember the days and nites...
cause even still they havent changed....blackness...blackness...
reminds me of this song called All Black by Good Charlotte..

well after reading it up, you wont believe but i couldnt literally stand up...
i am still thinking about it...what is it that is making all this happening...


is it a sign...to show me that i m never supposed to get "it"..?
why ,,,, never mind i wont question....never...

god hasnt been fair enough...or should i better say that....i m in the wrong....

i just cant get out of it..



well...it happens...i will come out of it...
but the only thing that i am worried about is the fact that whether you would be able to come out of it. i cant see your sunshine smile dissappearing...i just dont want it... i want those smiles and laughs to always be there with you...if they arent...i will be there to give them to you...haha lol..


hahaha
well life goes on...and you have to undergo...

dont worry lah..change is always for the better....to reflect on what you were becoming and wht you wanted to be as a person...

why am i doing this...
i mean, come on i m not expecting people to read this...and acknowledge <
neither is the concerned one...the dear one...gonna..


lol
never mind..


today was a bit fun lah..

today can classify the day as Icomp day....was with the icomp people since morning...
some of 'em are going for..
competitions...thought could entertain them while they prepare...
despite all the sadness...cause i guess they are understnding...


i really really feel like killing myself...and all the people on this planet...
except some..

mom
dad
erm... n
all the "special friends"

haha just kiddin..i m a good person...just tht its difficult to find...lol

Loves
takes and cares..

SaNdEsH

if you really meant what you wrote...i dont mind expecting myself to be freed...to be given independence and freedom...to be unblocked..