woah woah woah...

almost there,
i have to visualise the drift starting from this night onwards.

whether i'll drift and get back onto the track or whether i'll fall off the edge
i dont know,


i m nervous, afraid...
the feeling creeping in like a crawling snake, absolutely senseless, but still THERE.
haha

yeah,

i really dont know how to get it,
and now that the time has come, i dont know whether the door will open,
i am ready to break open it forcefully, but then there are so many people guarding the door...


it just seems highly unlikely..


and somemore, that its now just me,
being sucked up like this..


it worries me even more...





i mean, they wont even hesitate. seriously..!!
but i seriously hope things go well, and that this wouldn't be the end..

let it be the beginning, start of the beginning...







nothing's been paid off, but in mere terms,
its just difficult,
chances are slim, slimmer than ever...


and i dont want to be engrossed in this...


i can face the people...but would i be able to face them..







hard to say..
very very very hard to say,

i have seen the expressions on the faces,
and everyone knows..




hopeless,
but there is still some fire left, and it is enough to burn down an entire forest..





haiz,
the world is sinking in the economic crisis, and people are regretting taking risks or for some, even measures to secure their lives...but in my shoes, something entirely different is happening..




i think i'll lose myself tonite..
yet again..





hoping for a better sunshine..tomorrow.




sndsh
:(