Hey life...How to start today's post??? How?? I dont really know eh...but maybe this would work..in the morning, i was a BAD guy, but towards the end of the day, and following the course of the events that happened before the end...just changed my perspectives about things...well lets go to the details...morning...
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Monday, April 21, 2008
please revive me...i beg you...its too much for me...really...i know its difficult but i am not asking for something too big....is it??i cant breathe...all i see is a pool of tears around m...
do you realise that you just killed me??i saw that expression on your face...today..i saw the secret "hidden" gestureswell, if my death is what you wanted..there you have it now..all i wanted was...a...maybe just a little.... with thatbut i guess, you have too much to share..and well, ya i know your...
Sunday, April 20, 2008
heyathose looks, those feeling in the heart,those tight expressions..suggesting to doubt myself...i mean, apart from all "that"my basic aim in life is to become a GOOD PERSON...and the person, whom i could think was the bestpossible person around me, who could tell me the about my progress towards my...
Thursday, April 17, 2008
trying...trying to analyze the words...those words... are so deep...so deep..woven with the delicate fabric..maybe...the biggest possibility that i can think...is thatmaybe you still...maybe..i dont know..hate myself...just hatemyself...is it that the characters keep on changing in your words or is...
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
well there was a reason...there is a reason....there will always be a reason...and yet again, i will overlook it...and try to bring down the world. while walking back from school today, i took the route less travelled by..well people noticed changes in me....but i guess, i am too shy to tell them the...
allrite..should i now find reasons to kill myself, or should i just live in a world of frenzy that leads nowhere but to a sphere bloody surprises that are so predictable but never the less, not expected from people. I mean should i really find a reason..??things are on the right track, i guess...and...
Sunday, April 13, 2008
heya world..i dont know whats happening there..coz all i know is that you dont want to be with me...lets get this straight...whatever i say, i mean it...direct / indirectnever ever did i react to the pain that i got, never ever did i even mention it..everytime, i thought maybe i am the one who is wrong..and...
Friday, April 11, 2008
i am questioning my existence...what in the f'kin world did i do so wrong...that i am having to face the repercussions NOW...and that too in such a strange and un-fashionable method. I mean, for the legal part of it...i shouldnt care..but i have to....coz i just cant see scratches on platinum...i dont...
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Monday, April 7, 2008
i am sorry...i wont be expressive any more....if that is what you want.i wont do any such thing that would hurt you or make you angry...may it be this..but please talk to me...there are so many things left to do..and such a weird time has come by...but really dont want to tell anyone about it..but i...
Sunday, April 6, 2008
i m sorry mom...but i know you got the hint that i am sad...but still i dint tell you i am...anyways thnx a lot for you birthday wishes...momand i truely agree that for you i was always born today...i know you wanted to talk more...but somehow, i just wasnt in the mood to do so...cozyamore than anything...
Sister, Please Hold My HandAs we journey through this landTogether we stand, together we will fallNo matter what, God will keep us togetherThat will be the best of allSister, please hold my handBecause without you I can't standFor we were put on this earth for a reasonTo go...
why why why...??as well i was dwelling in the sadness...and somemore..now even di's angry with me...what worse can this get?i dont know what to do..i cant concentrate on anything...i dont really care about my sadness...but di getting angry with me, is something that i really fear..(its one of the very...
just got up after a sleepless night...it was horrible last night..i criedfor like 45 minutes..ystrday..(as if ANYONE cares..)my act of selflessness is putting me in a very awkward position...slept without the P last night...and i could feel the emptiness in my arms..still shocked about what i came to...
Why...why why??? was it kept away from me..where did i fall short..hate myself for not living upto my expectations...yes..i am crying...(why am i even saying all this....it doesnt even make a difference to anyone...ppl are still gonna continue their HAPPY lives...)its been like a shock for mei mean...atleast...
Saturday, April 5, 2008
should i be happy or should i be sad...do birthdays mark another year of "survival", as someone says....or as one year closer to your death, as I say...but arguement need not go further, coz the result is predictable.i mean..yes it is...LIKE duh..well...thanx everyone for the wonderful time that you...
Friday, April 4, 2008
hahahappy birthday to myself..to my new self...well...comparisons make me reflect that things are becoming way different than they were last year, but maybe its relieving to know thats its better in some sense...well last nite wasnt that bad, i mean ya...it wasnt ...lolzangel was the first one to wish...
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
something to add more to that...well happy April Fool's day to everyone..i compared....the pranks..and even though both were almost completely opposite..but even then...i guessed..i was wrong in using the word "day" for the previous postevery second of your existence makes me care for you...the graph...
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
i bet something is being hidden from me..something that can change my perspectives if i know about it...but..mysteries have been building up...i dont really know why ppl having doubting companies..not to be a Jack and a PokeyPoker here...but i think, it wasnt planned or anything..never mind..well..called...