if only words could express what i m feeling right now... i would've shouted them out in the darkest nights.. if only i hadn't done what i did, i would be a bit more happier than what i m right now...
I've known you through the years I've shared with you all my fears Then one day I had to go away Leaving you behind Hoping that I can find A way For you to talk to me another day I hope you're fine But, I want you to be alive So we can another time One more time
Hold on Just a little bit Longer Hold On I know you're stronger Hold On You're life isn't through yet Cause what you see isn't what you get I'll help you in any way I can I only hope that what I do Will help you to get through This I'm not ready to miss you-oo
Come on pull away Fight to live another day I have so much left to do So much to go through But I know I can Stand up and shake your hand If you're gone I will be sad for far too long
So come on Stay awake Come on Don't be late Don't follow the light Stand up and fight I know you will beat the odds someday Let that day, be today
Hold on Just a little bit Longer Hold On I know you're stronger Hold On You're life isn't through yet Cause what you see isn't what you get I'll help you in any way I can I only hope that what I do Will help you to get through This I'm not ready to miss you-oo
hmm... nice right??? well...thts just the thought i had in mind after reading it.. yes..
haha well.. last week was fun.. nothing interesting happened... but still it was fun..
MusicFest 09 audition was good.. we performed well...even though i couldnt hear a single thing what the others were playing...and therefore i have no idea how i played... but i think it should have been ok.. yea
haha i need to study..aahh.. econs test this week..
omg.. floorball tournament at NUS was just pissing... i mean sersiously..we played like shit!!! like literally SHIT! Yan was extremely pissed off... even though we managed to clinch the top prize amongst the other JC's but we dint play upto the mark... it dint seem like the
VJ brand of Floorball...
yea.. haha
i scored on a penalty..woohoo..
start..go go go go, decide... fake fake fake fake
and
pah.. shoot
GOAL!!! yay.. i was very happy...but i really dint want that happiness to come to my face coz i was very annoyed by the way we were playing the game...
ya..
haha... lets talk abt something else..
di's been acting weird again...and i have no idea why!! come on.. i guess.. we really need to talk about it...i mean seriously... i think i need to do some brain surgery without physical contact.. haha reminds me of the Bulshido video.. lol
ya.. that moment was just awesome...i mean they always are...and i guess, this will turn out to be something special i guess.. i m waiting for it..
i just am..
oh and ya...i know this has nothing to do with any of the stuff thts here...and that the persons' not even gonna read it..but still..
thnx rh! :)
haha.. haha lol
ok i need to go back to facebook to chat...its been quite a while since i replied..
haha so...
bbye
LOL!
:)
lets see wht the following week has in store for me..
it was just awesome.. i cant believe...i lasted!! haha 4 intensive trainings in 2 days... with suicides after 2 of 'em.. can suck the hell out of anyone...
but i feel i play better now.. my passes have improved...i keep my stick on the ground... i m more confident of my shots, i corrected my drag shots and... I CAN TURN DRAG. i wish i make it to the free hit line.. yay..
coach carter was a good movie... quite inpirational...and now we know where Yan gets his ideas for trainings.. lol..
haha..
A div is about a month ahead...and the other schools are really stepping out of their limits to win it.. MJ girls are training in Perth... TJ thinks they can beat us...
well.. i really dont care what they think.. all i know that vj's so so so so gonna kick ass'es this season..
our jersey's have been sent for printing... woohoo 57 57 57 57 57 57 57 57 57 57 thnx for helping me choose the number..
got my jersey shorts today.. Adidas Tropy Shorts Black with sunshine strips..
its just awesome.. yay..cant wait for the jersey t-shirt and jacket...
i m very very very tired now.. and a bit angry with someone.. but nvr mind.. i'll be ok.. haha lol..
well i hv no idea wht is going on in angel's mind...srsly.. i mean, whts happening to her?? aarrrggghhh... why is she becoming someone i nevr expected her to be... maybe its just coz of me... or maybe there is some other reason..
i want to go roller blading.. long time... :( ya... maybe i'll clear out stuff then...
anyways found these 2 extremely sick videos...
haha... if u dont think there is anything sick about it, and if u were a censiorship board member & passed these videos with a clean chit.. then i 'd like to say..
CONGRATULATIONS ON STAYING SO CLEAN!. yeah haha
anyways..
Well you done done me and you bet I felt it I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted I fell right through the cracks Now I'm trying to get back Before the cool done run out I'll be giving it my bestest And nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
I won't hesitate no more, no more It cannot wait, I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me Open up your plans and damn you're free Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love Listen to the music of the moment babay sing with me We're just one big family And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved
So I won't hesitate no more, not yours It cannot wait I'm sure There's no need to complicate Our time is short This is our fate, I'm yours
Scooch on over closer dear And i will nibble your ear
I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer But my breath fogged up the glass And so I drew a new face and laughed I guess what I'm be saying is there ain't no better reason To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons It's what we aim to do Our name is our virtue
But I won't hesitate no more, no more It cannot wait I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me Open up your plans and damn you're free Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours Please don't, please don't, please don't There's no need to complicate Cause our time is short This oh this this is out fate, I'm yours!
Sandesh
"When I dare to be powerful, to use my strength in the service of my vision, then it becomes less and less important whether I am afraid."
i mean, i know u sucked.. but dint know the situation was THAT bad..
i mean srsly... thr are like a hundred and zillion things you dint tell me abt..., and by the way u define that screwed up loser word, i think you should consider labeling urself one than me..
some people just have to behave like retards... seriously... wth..
and i really dont have any problems saying this to you anymore.. you just suck at making decisions... like seriously.. YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A SELFISH DUMBASS...
anyways... let me just try to forget that.. waiting for di to reply... maybe she'd help.. i want to go ECP.. aaarrrrgggghhh....
di...whts happening to u? why r u changing so much so suddenly? why is there this weird feeling in me...telling me that you are angry again...!! :( fuck!! and the reason i care so much about this feeling is cause it has always ended up being true..
well somehow... this fact was just proved wrong... yay! haha, but even then..
why are 'things' drifting apart.. why?
i dont want that to happen...
yeah... well
to talk about other things..
OMG was that frame-captured-by-my-eye beautiful or what!!! it just seemed so beautiful...i wanted to take a picture...but dint get the permission(dint hv good enough instrument)... AWWW :( i know..i know..
seemed like a movie scene from the movie twilight... yeah...with the moon and the tree...and the dark background... but it was awesome and totally beautiful..
but it was just nice.. and no matter the picture got saved into my mind...like forever. and i'll never forget it.. NEVER!
its just like di, its just like koala, like chimp, its just like rhn, like rj, like xc people i'll never ever ever ever ever evr forget!!!...
<3 u all.. aahhh... i need a hug!!! :') anyone..???
aww.. haha..
but i am happy..
wow.. mom told me something.. i wont say it out here.. but i m happy for my parents...their dreams are finally gonna come true... :)
haha... i think thts all for today's post.. i'll try update more regularly.. gtg study.. haha
You're not alone Together we stand I'll be by your side You know I'll take your hand When it gets cold And it feels like the end There's no place to go You know I won't give in No, I won't give in
Keep holding on Cause you know we'll make it through We'll make it through Just stay strong Cause you know I'm here for you I'm here for you There's nothing you can say Nothing you can do There's no other way when it comes to the truth So keep holding on Cause you know we'll make it through We'll make it through
So far away I wish you were here Before it's too late This could all disappear Before the door's closed And it comes to an end With you by my side I will fight and defend I'll fight and defend, yeah, yeah
Keep holding on Cause you know we'll make it through We'll make it through Just stay strong Cause you know I'm here for you I'm here for you There's nothing you can say Nothing you can do There's no other way when it comes to the truth So keep holding on Cause you know we'll make it through We'll make it through
Hear me when I say When I say I believe. Nothing's gonna change Nothing's gonna change destiny Whatever's meant to be Will work out perfectly Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah La da da da, la da da da La da da da da da da da da
Keep holding on Cause you know we'll make it through We'll make it through Just stay strong Cause you know I'm here for you I'm here for you There's nothing you can say Nothing you can do There's no other way when it comes to the truth So keep holding on Cause you know we'll make it through We'll make it through
Ahh, ahh Keep holding on Ahh, ahh Keep holding on There's nothing you can say Nothing you can do There's no other way when it comes to the truth So keep holding on Cause you know we'll make it through We'll make it through
hope u dont miss me.., coz I DO!
its tht feeling in me, that settles back to remember all the times we've had, but then... i feel so lonely..
come back! pls come back...,
i'll wait for you at the door steps.. i'll wait for you at the start of the road.. i'll wait for you at that base of the mountain,
it is so difficult to go away... a night worth of risks and a day worth of challenges if i had eyes maybe that is all i could've seen
maybe you should come back, and the winds shall blow again, blow right into my face, and make me go free..
i hate being the prisoner of this freaking misery, it is really hard to keep everything inside, when you know it'll never precede.
aaahh fuck it! i have so much to say, but there is no one to listen.. the pressure is killing me... i need to tell someone..
but, maybe when the day is bright..
wooohoo.... this is my 200th post. (bt its so not how i felt when it was my first one..) so many things have changed and gone by..but all these moments just dont seem to flea..
aaahhh..
"I am sorry. It would have been better if we wouldn't have met. None of this would have happened." "Look at me, I'd rather die tomorrow, than to live a hundred years without knowing you." and all those that i have lived until now without you, was a journey i took, just to know you. you mean that much to me. If I Never Knew You Pocahontas Soundtrack
If I never knew you If I never felt this love I would have no inkling of How precious life can be And if I never held you I would never have a clue How at last I'd find in you The missing part of me In this world so full of fear Full of rage and lies I can see the truth so clear In your eyes So dry your eyes And I'm so grateful to you I'd have lived my whole life through Lost forever If I never knew you
If I never knew you I'd be safe but half as real Never knowing I could feel A love so strong and true I'm so grateful to you I'd have lived my whole life through Lost forever If I never knew you
I thought our love would be so beautiful
Somehow we made the whole world bright
I never knew that fear and hate could be so strong All they'd leave us where these whispers in the night But still my heart is singing We were right
If I never knew you If I never knew this love I would have no inkling of How precious life can be
There's no moment I regret Since the moment that we met If our time has gone too fast I've lived at last...
I thought our love would be so beautiful Somehow we'd make the whole world bright
I thought our love would be so beautiful We'd turn the darkness into light
And still my heart is singing We were right
We were right And If I never knew you I'd have lived my whole life through
Empty as the sky
Never knowing why Lost forever If I never knew you
"I cant leave you." "You never will. No matter what happens to me, I'll always be with you... Forever."