i am sad..SCARED actually..
i dont think i need to emphasize why this is so, coz well, there arent many things i am scared of..
well, if u read this, all i can say is, i dint have any wrong intentions behind it.. and i know this sounds crazy but i just wanted to safeguard our positions...

haiz..
i m so down now...

i dont even feel like doing anything...
got up like 3 or 4 times at night, to check my hotmail...but dint find any luck there too..

i am so screwed...so screwed..

but well,
i am sorry.. i really dint expect all this to happen, but since it is happening...
i apologise..

i dont know what to do..seriously..,


well, mom's planning a lot of things for me today...
guess, i wont really be so happy to enjoy 'em after all..



i m a bad person..right??
well,
gerald's getting his guitar today, hope he can find the one he wanted...
wish sweelee get in some fresh stocks today..




i know this is a short post...but ya..i guess, i am not in a mood to express myself..
waiting for some replies...

D:
Sandesh

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hey guys..

haha
well, i m back in India,

the flight was quite good, surprisingly, the services have become better than last year...so ya...
enjoyed all the way, talking to di, tanya, ambalica all the way...
remembered that poem that di wrote.. ya..
haha

anyways...
woohoo i got my iPod at last..so am busy these days, transfering songs and videos to it..
and believe me..

i have already started missing people...especially those, who are so near me, but i just do miss 'em a lot...ya..


and ya, i was remembering the intermixing of cultures, in Renjie's stomach and the activities that night...which was quite memorable...
hmm...


and oh ya...haha Gerald started blogging AGAIN, lolz...haha, something that he should have been doing since like dunno when..but its good he started...sorry about the links man...i am just too lazy to go and edit the code..ya...
perhaps i'll do that sometime later....ya..and
try not to be too diplomatic...lolz
haha



aarrrggghhh,,,it just doesnt feel different to be here...its all the same..
i need to push my self....ahead of my limits to get things done now..

haha
will write soon..

gotta go now..

Sandesh
Missing u...
di

:D

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hey...


well today was fun...fun in a very odd sense..
fun with shreks, fun with princesses and beautiful ogres...haha
and FUN with bio... (thewieee)

lol

ya...so basically, tried to concentrate on studying...but somehow coudlnt..
happy that i could finish studying with revision somemore..
but not very confident..
omg..
i m freaking scared for history...

anyways..

well,
am i going towards a different path or what..
i dont want to..

but it seems that objectives are getting too far away from me..
and they seem further if i walk nearer to them..
ya..


well..
haha

so ya..
today's post kinda small..i know..
i'll be back with more..
so ya..

anyways..


WINDOWS VIENNA rox..to the CORE..
omg
cant wait to get my hands on it..


and yes

MAC OS SUX


kk

bye
getting l8

Sandesh.loves.his.sister.so.much.so.that.it.becomes.inexpressable.for.him.to.define.it.
<3

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hey..

long time since i saw this page...anyways..

well i dont know what to say, i am out of words...
all that i wanted to say... just doesnt come out!!

dunno why...


a bit down these days...cause of something..
maybe because of someone..

someone NOT MANY ppl know...a

actually what this "someone" said to me..


the words just keep ringing back and forth in my head..and all i can do is to hear the gongs and the rings and whatever shitty sounds that bells make...

but i guess, i have taken the decision...
but with that decision comes many others too..
and these so called "others" are the ones that i really dont want to think about at this moment..
i mean come on...
as if anyone cares about it lah..
but still..

well, the past few days have been really very interesting..
all the filming, and the pranks, and the goof ups, and mOmEnTs just cant be forgotten..
its just found its place in my head..and of course, in my heart too..
LOLZ

i just dont know, how great i feel, when i am around 'em, and i just want to be around 'em ..
but, never mind, i know its hard...but in short... i can say..
yay man!! THIS IS LIFE!!
but still 5% incomplete..
lol

ya..
haha

and well..
yesterday was girls soccer finals..and of course...we won!! the match was, exciting in a very vague sense of the word...but still....its a Victorian thing...i guess..
anyways..
had a pizza party on the bus en route to the stadium..
and then Novia was trying to prove me how basketball's a rather much interesting game than soccer.. anyways the so called 'argument' never concluded anywhere...and i think,
there can not be a definite answer..

well lets leave aside the arguments...there were some other things too..




lolz


LA test was okay...but i feel good abt the fact that for the first time, i was actually a bit confident for it..
maybe coz of di..i know she was there..haha

oh and ya...talking about di,
her b'day's up in a week and i havent still started out on the BIG thing.. (which means, i have finished the small thing already...maybe i'll make some changes...)
i am not really sure, whether i'll be able to make it up on that day...
COZ OF SOME PPL SCREWING UP A "WELL PLANNED" EXCUSE..

never mind, i wont think abt it..anymore...
coz what really matters is that...

its her birthday..
and that i love my sis..

thats all...

nothing else matters...

ya...
i know i have missed out quite a lot of things in this post...i'll try to edit it tonite..
but for the moment..

Sayonara
Adios

CyberBeast




and and ya...
AIRporks...
haha

help help
i am being attacked by the pigs..
lol
who'll sve me???

look in the sky..
its a plane,
its a bird,
no its a jet (how different is it from a plane..!!!)
HEROIC MUSIC IN THE BACKGROUND...

no
she
is

BANG,
a REAL plane bangs....

TO BE CONTINUED...


lol
:)




Oi, fiona,
i am not a goon ... ok??

i am a good guy..

:D

CONTINUATION...(haha...the night part)
well someone just expressed something...
i wasnt expecting..ya..

well anyways..
had a very interesting time talking to NJ for like an hour plus..
well,she's a different girl in herself.. haha
(SOMETHINGS I CANT SPEAK HER..this place is politically HOT)

haha but i guess, there was a reason, why i called her..
i dont know...what to do..
whom to talk to..
coz appears to me that...
ppl are acting very very very different..
and that does mean i am unhappy about it..
tried to forget abt it..
by a playing floorball for a while...but i dont know..

i just ended up thinking about that VERY thing...



black shadows..and the sky,
all together, go an EXTRA mile..

lol..i know that was random..

anyways..something different from the topic..
like hello,
i dont wanna be a dickjack or someone..
to pop out of nowhere..

take ur time, i mean as if that had to help in any ways..
keep the PRIVACy..
ok back to the topic

i am really, feeling sad at the moment..sad about what??
i dont know myself.. and even i know...
i dont think i would talk abt it to ANYONE...
let me stress that out again.. ANYONE.. (ppl are really forcing to be like that, maybe its just my high expectations of 'em, well i guess, coz they do stand up to it...)

but someppl really incited it too much....i mean, i guess, you can notice that yourself..right??
thnx NJ, i really dint plan to call..but just somehow...
i wanted to relax myself, AFTER getting that shock...
and since PPL WERE BUSY... (seriously..seemed like ground zero...like black hawk down like that)

i really dint have any other option..
and i feel a bit better..
but i am seriously, dying to meet her.. ya

keep it between haha..i am cool with it...haha
someone just made me feel that...maybe,
i just am not fit.. not fit in phsical terms..
but for something else..

never mind..i can go on and on...,
but WORLd..all i want is a li'l bit of peace and happiness..


anyways...i am excited about di's birthday..aaaah...the BIG thing is still left...and pressure is spawning on my head.. i'll start tomorrow...

but maybe, i am expecting...never mind coz Nature...is powerfuland beautiful

StillFigure.09,whetherUmeantIT.. i m again trapped in the web..will anyone come forward to help me out..
i guess,,,
no one would...
NO ONE... NO ONE...
yes NO ONE..
absolute..
:(


CyberBeast
D:

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