Tuesday, August 31, 2010

I havent chosen my option yet.

Composed a piece today.. named it 'departure' resembling that feeling i have inside me since a very long time.. but today it just came out.
felt like giving another chance, cause it wouldnt hurt anyone to hear an explanation.. but how would even an explanation heal a state of heart and mind that is already battered by those actions. I guess, first times are always like that.. or at least it is gonna be for me. But it seems it is going to be very hard for "people" to understand somethings.. because I think that for you its like a prerogative... with a tinge of selfishness. Selfishness isnt the right word. Selfishness is more like an imposed thing... you force yourself to chose SELFISHness over selflessness because of your god damn decisions. And because all you believe in is that you are god damn failure... you never seem to know anything.. i wonder why.. probably its because.. all you care about is well YOU and that too you do not understand properly. and You are definitely NOT normal.. not at ALL. People fool around and their actions almost feed ur butterfly and all you can say is that u will try and put the butterfly in the jar but u never do. why is it like something so hard for you to put a god damn jar not just around ur butterfly but also yourself. i dont doubt the fact that sometimes the scripts are written that way, but you dont have to overdo your part.. u are not in a freaking movie about a damsel with whom, everything just always goes wrong.. those things dont happen.. unless you force ur environment to do so..

seriously, the reason you think your stars leave is cause u dont know how to keep them well.. you just want more and more and for those you do have dont really mean anything to you.

so another star is gonna depart soon, if not now.
and once the emotions are confirmed, the rhythm is set , the melody is played.. the departure will be final.

so do something, before the stars that could be your diamond, vanishes.

cyberbeast.

so this star will

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