Why Me?


Can I question or have I even lost the right to ask that to myself?






I dont know..
had a wonderfully disturbing dream last night...(not that it was so disturbing that i fell off the bed or what, but I have been thinking a lot about it, i mean do i have any other choice not to think about it?)


anyways..
i wont say i m not enjoying..but errr..ya..
nvr mind



sad

sandesh

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I can imagine that feeling setting in again. Its pretty strong and forceful. Too coercive in nature....not that i'll give up or what...i mean COME ON... this is the cyberbeast we are talking abt here..



but not just that...
something is becoming dark.
darker than it ever could be..



and its so heavy...
heavy beyond limits..







cant really be happy...neither do i want to be sad..
but i just dont know how to react, because it is more than just the question mark that has been put up now...

its the question of time...
which doesnt stop for anyone..





i hope it could...but things dont run the way i want them to be right.???





it feels weird when u see others happily leading their perfect little lives....and yet not contempt with it...
i mean, life in the very broadest sense is extra-ordinary dear... why r ppl complaining??


i mean i should be doing more of that...and less of this isnt it???? but i dont want to coz...
it is...





nvr mind..


off the topic..




practicing for prom now...
just 2 days left...and today we dont even practice together...





woohoo, i mastered playing sugar we're going down....and most of this love....



rest of the songs will be mastered by tomorrow...
cant wait for prom..
i still dont know what to wear for prom...guess i'll end up being a clown...and maybe to suit the environment... 3 jokers from my class would start laughing as if a mad cow just bumped into them...


i dont wanna wear black..



blah blah blah...
i think i should go watch a movie or something..
anyways..




adios..
Sandesh

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going on and on..

trying to be free..



but somehow even imprisonment was also good.
i wanna stay in it..


so that i have more time..



time and people...SHOULD go hand in hand..
but at the moment when u step out of the prison, you feel that..

it should be people and people going hand in hand..



but haiz..
things dont work the way i want them to be...neither am i wishing for it to happen coz then the world be very chaotic..
haha




yeah.

friday was the last day for us as 07v11...and we celebrated a last set of birthdays after school...

singing to the tunes was fun...and
louise started crying also...
xin chen was emo'ing also

rj was also sad...but his reasons were way too different than the others..
his reason was L.

anyways..


i hope we'll stay on together..
and stay in contact..










i want i want i want.

but i dont know i dont know i dont know






anyways..
i gotta practice for prom..



and i still dont have any idea wht i want to wear for it..


anyways..


bb
lol



sandesh

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