Until you crash
Until you burn
Until you lie
Until you learn
Until you see
Until you believe
Until you fight
Until you fall
Until the end of everything at all
Until you die
Until you’re alive
Don’t save me, don’t save me, cuz I don’t care
Don’t save me, don’t save me, cuz
I don’t care
Until you give
Until you’ve used
Until you’ve lost
Until you lose
Until you see, how could you believe?
Until you’ve lived a thousand times
Until you’ve seen the other side
This is my chance, this is my self.
Don’t save me, don’t save me, cuz I don’t care
Don’t save me, don’t save me, cuz
I don’t care
Until the truth becomes a lie
Until you change, until you deny
Until you believe
This is my chance, this is my chance
I’ll take it now because I can
This is my chance, I want it now
Don’t save me, don’t save me, cuz I don’t care
Don’t save me, don’t save me, cuz
I don’t care
Save me, save me, save me
Save me, save me, save me
I don’t care
Talk to me angel,
i miss your voice
your silence is killing me, and
i am tired of this life.
your feelings are unsound
you too are confused
but i m not blaming you
because its not your fight
but i do want you to
be there with me
to stand by my side
and help me fight this misery!
dont do this to me
I cant take it anymore
i know u are trying to fight it out
but i need my angel too
:(
Confessions of a confused soul to an angel
for that light you showed me
through the darkness of a confused heart
for the words you thought you'd say
that was awaited so long by the silence in my mind.
i still remember your face and your closed eyes
that just made me look at you for hours and hours
there are so many words left unsaid
that tell a new story but for the reasons you'll never know
i will not say anything.
i remember that first sight which i can never forget
and that lovely smile that melts me inside
but now, everything seems so different
and your silence has grown so much, its making my
thoughts go wild.
tears roll down my eyes, when i think of you
your presence incaptivates me in my own mind
and that piece on the piano just moves me
to the beauty of your eyes.
but angel, i am confused now
everything's changing so fast
and in this world of selfish people
i just seem to miss that past.
you say you are the same and
that i dint do anything
but whenever i see you, whenever i talk to you now
something feels weird, something feels strange.
and it hurts me in my heart so much
that i only feel like running to you
and crying in your laps
to tell you that this is unfair
i feel so lonely and nobody!! NOBODY CARES!
and i know your heart will want
to say something but still you wont say
because you'd think it may not be right.
(to be continued...)
i m not gonna say further..
wrote these few lines in the morning... but i dunno whether whoever was supposed to understood it...
when you smile, the world smiles with you
when you smile, you make me want to smile too
when you smile, the room smiles with you
when you smile, butter melts and i do too!
and guys please dont, i SAY dont ask me about what or who or whatever the poem's about/for/anything.. yeah!
oh and blog's gonna be taken off in a few days for updating template! yea!
so till then..
keep waiting..
Sandesh
:(
i swear upon the birds and tress,
that i am not well,
this is the path that you made me take
and now it seems like it'll probably never be..
i cant tell you whats wrong with me,
because you cant see that deep,
it is more than just the crying and sighing,
that lies beneath me...
i dont know why you changed so much,
so much so that you forgot everything
like with a fresher smell of nectar,
you flew away like a bee...
i put my heart open in front of you
without ever doubting and so u know what i feel inside, but
all you did was take it up the building
and threw it at the sky...
and now its falling down and down,
pulled towards the darkness
that lies beneath...
and soon shall the time come
when it would never be seen
you are making me so angry..
and you dont care...
because all that is running through your mind..
is about you, and your life and your kind.
there was a time,
when i had the magic
and this is very true...
whenever i picked up my phone,
i cud always know what you had to say..
but now that magic is gone,
i see my phone... and see the blankness in it
all i know now is that you just dont wanna say..
i still remember that time when
words were said..
and i thought maybe things were right..
but all you did was drift away
to turn my bright day.. into the darkest night :(
i try to do so much for you
so much so that you dont even know..
but for the things that you think you know..
i dont see any emotions (from you), cause you never show...
i still remember out first talk,
when u talked so differently,
that was perhaps the best "mini" conversation,
i'll always remember in life..
i tried to talk to you, to tell you what i feel
but you were so far away,
you couldnt make out what i said..
but you still chose to keep the distance
because everything was so "RIGHT" for you
everytime those tears rolled down on cheeks (mine)
was like eating chocolate ice cream for you.
i thought you cared, i still think you do..
but you are just taking it so easy
i cant do anything but sigh
friends talk to each other
friends clear away doubts
friends stick by ur side,
when things are fucked up in your mind..
and you arent doing anything of that sort,
maybe its too much for you..
but like the way you are getting on with it
you are moving away from that person i knew
i dont know whats going through your mind,
but for now, my mind is SCREWED.
a "are you ok?" is also NOT what i am expecting,
a smile is all i need.
i know there are always reasons
and i'll be happy to hear it all
but hiding all that away from me...
is definitely - SO NOT MAKING ME HAPPY! ("for your happiness" - ya rrite!!)
i know you enough to tell you
that no matter what you wont change,
but you are determined to prove me wrong.
because maybe "you dont like" what i said...
i m sorry, i hope you'll forgive me
forgive the person who is
a mile and a half below the ocean,
looking for that hand he needs..
that hand that he knows he'll find,
find in time to save himself
and pull him away from this misery.
i dont know what else to say,
coz my heart and mind feels heavy,
its just a matter of moments,
before the hyena cries.
i wish that you'll try,
try to explain to me the saddest fact of my life.
dont think what i will feel about it.
you have already killed me inside.
but no matter what,
i'll still never forget all that imagery that comes to my mind..
because
that night, you were the star i wished upon
that WE'll make things right!
guys i know this is weird and out of a sudden but somehow its just true....
none of you have an idea whats wrong with me..
and i cant tell anyone about it...because no one will understand the depth of it...
somehow i thought time will make things right...but it did not..
and i have to face it all again...
myself..
so ya..
hope you all like the new blog design...
i dint have enough time to add more stuff like always do...
i still need to mess up with the codes and everything
exams been keeping me busy for a while..
-
Sandesh
that moment when you left me behind,
all the while, made me cry and think about you..
i will not let any of this go...because all this is attached to you and nothing matters if i cant do this..
so i will fucking push myself against my limits and do whatever it takes to get there... i'll do my best...NOTHING but the best... i know this sounds crazy at this point...but NOW is the only time i have in hand, and this is all that i'll probably ever get... and i cant let this ruin everything..
so i'll fight everything that comes my way and i'll save those tears and keep it for the time when happiness comes knocking on my door, and i'll say.. "Heyy, what took you so long? Missed the train?"
bloody hell.... this is even more painful than any of the floorball trainings i have gone through... i'd rather do 20 sets of suicides than go through this.. but like i went through all that, i'll go through all this and make the best out of it...cause champions sacrifice to excel... and they strive to win..
my sacrifices wont go waste..
cause i strive to win.
Impossible is Nothing.
Prove everyone wrong sandesh. This is the time. Show everyone that you can go beyond limits that people cant even think of. ENDURE THIS and the fruits shall be sweet at the end of the track...
-
Sandesh
if i can only hope...
if i can only wish...
if i can only imagine...
if i can only dream...
if i can only cry...
if i can only sigh...
i will only love, love you
i will only be there, be there for you
you can make my hopes hopeful...
you can make my wishes come true...
you can make my imagination run wild...
you can make my dreams come alive...
you can make me cry tears of happiness...
you can make me not sigh...
IF you can love, love me
IF you can be there, be there with me
ah, i wish i could read your mind...
so that i'd know what makes you love someone!!
:)
i m happy...for a while i guess..
but this happiness here, for now, is definitely cause of you!
thnk u
<3
sometimes you don't feel like talking,
not cause you don't want to,
or you don't wish to,
or that you don't like who
you're talking to.
it's just that sometimes
you feel, after saying
something, something of great
importance to your heart,
or your soul, you feel
that you don't feel it
anymore.
like as though,
by saying it,
you're letting it go,
and you know,
sometimes, you don't
want to let things go.
because you know
things can go on
and new things
can grow
out of what
has been grown.
and because
you want to feel
feel that something
that sort of shows
that you're still
alive and not
part of an
illusion.
but keeping things
inside of you
like a bottle
will not help
because you know
someday,
somehow,
somewhy,
it'll be opened
and if there's
just too much being
bottled up,
everything will
just spill out
instantly,
automatically,
logically,
and it'll just
be too much,
too much, for
anyone to get
what you feel
what you say
what you think.
but despite all your wants,
your needs, your desires,
you know in this world,
things are going to go
against you,
not because you're
right and they
are wrong,
or they being
right and you
being wrong,
but because
in actual fact
there's no
right or wrong.
but still despite all those
negative happenings
occurring around you,
as though it's taking
over your world,
you should be living
for that small little
good thing right there,
and not forsaking
anything, or everything
with the thought
of ending it all.
no clue as to why those words came out,
with me not understanding half of what's
being written after re-reading,
still, it's the way i want it,
to have it written down,
as though engraved into something,
because, i don't want to let it out.
i still want to feel.
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