dont know whts gonna happen now..
i think i wont be as lucky...

FUCK

i cant believe it...
i just cant..


i mean, not as if i dint do it..or wht..
i ...i i... dont know



cant stop thinking about it...
its just too much...


my head so heavy with it...and no latter shall i receive the news and collapse..

fuck...
thats all i feel like shouting at the moment..



i mean, its really difficult to see everyone smile and be happy about things..
and i m here, trying to think about things...i never wished to think...



i m not aggressive enough...
i have to be stronger..
the fault lies beneath...and ..


nvr mind..
i m just purely sad..
and there is just one thing that can make me regain my happiness...but thats defnitely gonna take a hell lot of fucking time to happen and the probability of it happening is like so freaking little..



hate myself..

cyberbeast...