Well this would definitely be on a serious note..
or atleast i would try.



i wish i could tell someone how much u mean to me...
be it di, rj, nj, rhn, ankt, xc...

but literally i havent been able to...

there is this burning desire in me, to let out those wild feelings, and perhaps selfless emotions that i want to let out..

let them freeeee....

but, i..errr, its damn difficult.


i had a dream some days ago..

and that was what made me write this post...
i mean srsly,
it was one dream, i'd always cherish..

so i'll now talk abt the dream..
(IF U DONT UNDERSTAND ANYTHING, MOST LIKELY IT WASnt RELATED TO YOU)

i'll divide it into parts...
so here goes..


1. i was at a mall with mom, and somehow she went back home, and left me to browse thru.., haha,

and i saw somebody there...
somebody, who i was really dying to meet..

and i actually get to see the person in my DREAM!!... like wth! but never mind, not in reality, but atleast i got to meet "someone" in my dreams atleast..

but i think, it was one moment, i could have died to have dreamt off..


i just hope it can evn turn out to be reality.



//edit - this wasnt s'posed to be the original post...

at the end of all the shit that happened...i think i wouldnt want to talk abt any dreams..




everything crashed..
in the dark..
to show someone..
only to show someone,
it was left away...far far away..


i think, this is not the time to get sentimental...bt i think..

no one understands how much it means for me to be "sandesh" rated happy..

i guess, everyone is just contempt in seeing the "sacrificing sandesh" rated happiness..
well, if that is what makes them happy, then i dont have anything to say at all..


and with a god damn note,
i'd thus like to start my new year with this quote

"Fuck off _ _ _ _ _ _ _" and i guess, i should also carry a placard around displaying the quote..to fuckin' remind this retarded brain of mine to "SWITCH TO OTHER PEOPLE'S HAPPINESS SEEING QUOTIENT".....

nobody's to blame..
nobody's to answer...

i could have prevented everything all together..
i dont even know, whether these tears dropping off my cheeks are actually of fuckin happiness or the expected sadness...

all i know is that, this time....again, its the later ruling over the former..
FUCK!


i dont knw why these fuckin' lines from RNBDJ are running in my mind..

tujh mein rab dikhta hain, yaara mein kya karu!






fukSigning off..


anyways,
i m back in Singapore for those of u who dint know!

:(