well it cant get any better than this
you feel as if you are going towards the correct road....
and suddenly in the middle of nowhere you realise that nothing is right.... wth

i just cant seem to forget it....i dont know
it happened so suddenly...

wth


i dont understand who that "thing" is directed towards....maybe maybe
i dont know...*
all i can say.... wth..

acts of ignorance are clearly visible...
reconciliation is not how it goes...
once lost is lost forever....haha...(sadly)

wth..

but i wont ever ever ever 4get..
never....it was different...the air...the life...everything...
all i wanted to have was very simple...
and maybe i was right in demanding it too...
but somehow....as usual i m never supposed to get it... so now i freakin decide to suicide...(of course not in real lah)

i have taken the decision...the decision to stop it all....everything
maybe its time for me to re conciliate with someTHING...
i am trying...my best...but somehow.....its difficult to express...

its just natural..
wth..

today was the third...

i know..its not intentional
its not even wrong, i guess...everyone has reasons...whether they are valid or not is a different thing...but ....
wth...

its filling me upto my throat...
i m breakin down...why...??

am i supposed to be always deprived like this....maybe not anymore...

although not many have noticed the change in me....perhaps its good for me only...but
wth...

erm...
i am not going to delete my tagboard....
it is the sole representer and maybe to some extent true..LOL

but after all this
i must learn to get out....
i have the life vest..but i feel like removing it
and see for myself what it really feels to be INDEPENdANt

...haha
wth...

many days have passed and i guess i will say it out today

thanx...

thanx for being a part of my life....all those things do really matter for me...no matter what
i cant forget them...time passes on and we all have to accept the things...and the way they go...
cant really help it
m not blaming or stamping on someone's forehead...
everyone has something for someone...
and i guess i have heard that...
people get angry over others only if they care about them....

so basically i guess lookin at the positive terminal i guess i dont need to think so much about it...
but to be very honest...it did freak me out like hell
and all i ever wanted to communicate is some magick words which (although i know wouldn't have)...wth...
nvr mind...

incompleteness is in...

re-conciliation is OUT....

oppsite leh...but i am not thinking about it anymore...not till now atleast...

the original post was something else actually, but since you did not want to see me
saying certain things...
i edited the post...

and erm ya...maywhat...

i still do...
so ya...

dont worry i can get over it...


somethings that were told initially makes me feel that i m in the same situation...
maybe ...
wth..
but still then all that matters is you being happy...

i m sorry mom...i dint get it to you...
i fuckin failed to do that...
:(

i just cant see it anymore..i just cant

{[(and ya...i respect you more than i love you...coz you are someone special...someone way to different....to find your way through my....}])
three different contexts....but definitely true for y'all

i m not sad,,,....contradictory to what people are assuming i am...but i m just not SO happy about the way things are turning out into....

maybe i have to change...i am incapable...
i m responsible for this...

let me repent it...

loves
SaNdEsH (and guys...pls...there's nothing meaningful in interpreting SaNdEsH....there is no link with my name to any of the things...)

tk cr...
i m happy u r back again....
cheers
woohoo













MOOD
:*(